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Aqberen Elgezek. Joq, men jenilmeppin. Men jengen ekenmin

Býgin bir jigitter turaly әrtýrli әngime estip, әri kýrsindim әri quandym. Kýrsingenim - olardy ayaghanym, quanghanym - ózimning qatty ózgergendigimdi sezgenimnen edi. Uniyversiytet bitire salysymen 10 jylgha juyq memlekettik qyzmette istedim. Qolymnan eshtene kelmese de, qúzyretimde bәrin ózgertuge mýmkindik beretin ýlken tetikter bolmasa da, Qazaq memleketining bolashaghyna, basshylyqtyng dúrys sayasatyna ólerdey senip, belsendi júmys isteytinmin. Tipti, júmystan elden kesh shyghyp, erte keletinmin. Kóp oqyp, basshylyqqa eng kóp úsynys bergish te biz edik. "Pysyq" ta, "mansapqor" da atanghanbyz. Alghashynda jýreging auyratyn, artynsha miyghymyzdan kýlip, jýre beruge de daghdylandyq. Sebebi, júmys istegen adamnyng ghana artynan kýnkil sóz eretinin erte týsingen edik. Auyldan attanghanda, úly armandarmen shyqqan edim. Tәuelsiz elimning jarqyn bolashaghyna sengen anghal jýregim men balang tanymnyng arqasynda eshteneni elemey, kóp dýniyeni bayqamay jýretinmin. Jyldar ótti, ómir ózgerdi. Ómir ózgergen joq eken. Sana, kózqaras ózgeripti. Sana ózgergen son, siyspau oryn aldy, shettetilu men әleumettik jenilister dәuiri bastaldy. Allagha sansyz tәuba, synugha tayap qalghanda, ishki ruhymyz bek serpilip, ensemizdi tiktep jiberetin. Býgin endi zaman da, qogham da basqa. Al, bizdi basqaryp otyrmyz dep esepteytin әlgi jigitter shyn mәninde eshteneni bayqamay, on jyl boyy sol dengeyde, sol qalpynda qalyp qoyypty. Joq, men jenilmeppin. Men jengen ekenmin, jigitter! Sebebi, men halyqpen birge ózgerippin, al, sender kóshten qalyp qoyypsyndar. Alla sheber ghoy! Saghan ne qayyrly, ne qayghyly ekenin Jaratqannan artyq kim biledi? Ózing qayda ketip bara jatqanyndy ózing de bilmeysin. Endigi bar armanym, bar asqaq múratym - qazaqtyng joghyn joqtap, baryn kóbeytu. Bizde búlay sóilegen "memlekettik sayasatqa qarsy", "halyq jauy" dep tanylatynyn da jaqsy bilemin. Ásilinde, olay emes qoy, mýlde! Otyryp ap synau da - keremet sharua emes ekenin úghynamyn. Halyqqa bilgen-týigenin aitqan adamdy "jau, sodyr, býlikshil" dep tanityn kisiler qoghamnyng jedel damuy ýshin pikir aluandyghynyng qajettiligin, úsynys pen әdil baghanyng kerektigin bilse, abzal bolaryn esterine salghym keledi. Býgingi biz qanday bolghanymyz jón, ertengi úrpaq qanday bolu kerek, memleketimizding kemeldenui qay jolmen damuy tiyis degen mәselelerdi birlese qarastyratyn, birlese iske asyratyn jolda bolghym keledi. Sebebi, men aqyn retinde de, azamat retinde de Otanymdy sheksiz sýiemin!

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