Bas qalanda joldan ótip bara jatqan jayau jýrginshini dopsha domalatyp qaqqan 23-tegi bireu eken. Áyel qaytys bolghan. Anadan tiri qalu da mýmkin emes qoy. Imandy bolsyn! Úrlanghan kólikke (solay delindi) ie bolyp tayrandaghanymen qoymay, adam qaghyp óltirgen kimning balasy? Áke-sheshesin de jauapqa tartqan jón múndayda. Kimder? Aty-jóni kim? Aytyluy kerek. Kisisinen aiyrylghan otbasyna ózderi ólgenshe aiyp tóletse... Bas qalada bassyzdyq bolghan song basqagha ne deysin. Jalpy, Kenesarynyng basyn qaytarghansha bassyzdyq jaylaydy degen anyzdyng aqiqaty bar siyaqty ghoy. Bassyz bolmasa, úry ústalmay ma, ústamay ma, tәrtip ornamay ma...

Tarazda taltýste oqushy zorlandy. Zorlyqshy kim? Áke-sheshesi kimder? Bileyik! Ne tәrbie bergen balasyna, aitsyn, tyndayyq. Qay qylmysker bolsa da, týrmege týsip, sony biz asyraymyz. Olargha bir týiir may da, botqa men sorpa da, sugha pisken júmyrtqa da beriledi. Bir tilim nan jeydi! Al aramyzda qara sugha qarap, tauyqtyng etine de jete almay, makarondy sugha qaynatyp jep otyrghan da otbasy bar. Tubdispanserde jatqan auru baladay kórip, әke-sheshesi de tamaq tasidy taghy. Onday qylmyskerding әke-shesheni balasynyng kesiri tiygen otbasygha qúl ghyp jiberip, moynyna ómir boyy tóleytin aiyp ilse. Sonda aiylyn jiyar ma edi, bәlkim!

Sahnagha shyghyp eki әndi fonogrammamen aitatyn әnshisymaqtardyng әke-sheshesinen súhbat alyp, ózderin qoyyp, solardyng әke-sheshesine baghdarlama ashqyshtar, solardy kórsetip nasihattaghyshtar kórsetsin qylmys jasaghandardyng ýrim-bútaghyn. Arnasyn bir habardy! Qalay jasap, qalay sayrar eken, kóreyik. Kez kelgen qazaq balasy ózining tughan auylynda onaylyqpen beybastaqtyqqa bara bermeydi.

Qanday topas nadan bolsa da, bәribir әke-sheshening atyna kir keltirmeudi oilap túrady. Auylynda qylmys jasap kórsinshi aghalary, tipti solardyng qatarlastary-aq shyqpyrtyp jónge salady. Men biletin qazaqy auyl sonday edi. Al ýlken qalagha kelgen song balasynyng qayda túryp, nemen ainalysyp jýrgeninen kóp әke-sheshe beyhabar. Ne kelip kórmeydi, izdemeydi. Ýy alyp berip balasyn qolynan jetektep kirgizgendey auylynda beyqam jatady kóbi. Ótirik pe?

Baspanasy joq bala kóringenmen birigip qanghyp jýrip әueli pәter jaldaydy, qalalyq tirkeui bolmaghandyqtan júmysqa kire almay qaladaghy tirligin jaylap úrlyq jasap bastaydy. Ózinen kishige әlimjettik kórsetip, bireuding ilipalaryn tartyp ap jýrgen de, qoghamdyq kólikte timiskilenip kóringenning qaltasyna qolyn jýgirtip jýrgen de - ózimizding qazaq! Ýy tonap jýrgenderding de kóbi - qazaq jigitteri! Ózge últty jaqtap otyrgham joq. Jaqtamaymyn da. Shyndyghy sol ghoy bәribir. Balasynyng shalys basqanyna eng birinshi әke-sheshe jazalansa. Áke-sheshe ýshin bala jauap bermeydi, balasy ýshin әke-sheshe bәrine mindetti. Óz oiym.

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