Kóbine jón súraghan qazaqqa mening jauabym osylay. Bireuler kýledi, úghady, ary qaray qazbalamaydy. Tyrnap, shúqylap bara jatqany bolsa "Qúda bolatyn kýn tusa súrasayyq qalghanyn, oghan deyin osyny ghana bile túr" - deymin. Shytynaydy, "Qazaqtyng jón súrauyna qarsymysyn?! Osy "әrtister" birdeme súrasa әulie bola qalasyndar. Jónderindi aitpay, halyqty mensinbey, kókirek keresinder! Halyq emes pe senderdi ósirgen? Kimsinder óitetin?! Ua, shshsheshshsh..." - deydi. Tózemiz.

Studenttik bes jylymyzda oblysyn bilsek te ruyn bilmey ketken dostarymyz bar. Áli de dostyq jalghasyp keledi. Bir-ekeui Manghystauda, biri Shymkentte, biri Astanada... sóitip kete beredi. Bir-birimizding balalarymyzdy ýilendirip, qúdalyghyn atqaryp, shapqylap jýremiz. Byltyr Astanada sonday bir dosymyzdyng balasyn ýilendirip, qúdany qasqayyp qarsy alyp túrsam, bala kezden ózimdi biletin Narynqoldyq sheshelerim bastap kele jatyr qúdalardy. Mәssaghan! Mening namysyn jyrtyp túrghanym Zaysan men Aqjarlyqtar! Birese úl jaqtan bolyp, birese qyz jaqtan bolyp qaljynmen, qyzyqpen ótkizdik sonyng bәrin. Narynqoldyqtarym da riza, Zaysandyqtarym da mәz!

Ziyaly qauymnyng basqa saladaghy ókilderining atynan sóilemeymin, bizder, artister HALYQTYNG ARTIYSI bolghymyz keledi negizi. Ókimetimiz túqymyn qúrtqan sol ataqqa úmtylatynymyzda sondyqtan. Bizdi keyde kórermen bólgish. "Kórermen" degenimning ishinde sanaly, salauatty, sauatty aghayyn jetip jatyr. Qarapayym halyq televizordan kórgen artiysin "tiri" kórgenine mәz, shala shabylyp, sharq úryp jatady. Al, janaghy ziyandy-ziyalylar tughan jerindi bilse boldy, ishinen ton piship, "anau ekensing ghoy" - dep, shyrtiyp qalady. Qazirgi jastardyng ishinde kóp onday "bólingishter". Kimnen júqqany? Bizden-au. Ýlkennen.

Janaghy auzyna el qaraghan ziyandy-ziyaly aghalardan. Olar әkimshilikte de, jazushynyn, aqynnyn, teatrdyn, orkestrding arasynda da jýr. Bar. "Bólingendi bóri jeydi!" - degendi solar kóp aitady. Danyshpan bolyp sóilep, bas mýjip, qúlaq taratyp otyryp shúnaq oiynan habar berip qoyady. Kýnde kórip jýrmiz, estip, oqyp, talantyna tamsanyp jýrmiz. Áleumettik jelide de bir azamat jalpy qazaqqa ortaq oidy tolghasa aldymen óz jaqyny sózin sóileydi. Arasyna kirisip ketseng "Siz de bizding jaqtansyz ba?" - degen súraq aldymen qoyylady...

"Oppozisiyalyq" oida jýrgen keybir aghalar da sonyng attandap jýrgen taqyrybyn qozghap qoysan, ogorodynan qauyn úrlaghan bala siyaqty seni tómpeshtey týsedi. Olardyng da halyqtyng aldynda "abyroy" jinap jýrgen temasyna qol súqpau kerek eken. Sende onday pighyl tek sol aitqan son, sonyng "arqasynda" ghana payda boluy jón eken. Olar da saylau kezinde, syn saghattarda aldymen aghayyn týgendep, sosyn halyqty izdeydi. "Óz aghayyny tas atqan, qamaghan, atqyzghan, aidatqan" - degen óshpes hikayasy bar elmiz ghoy, aghayeeeen. Elmen boludy oilayyq dostar.

Kesheli beri "Nayman" jayly әngime bastalyp ketip edi, men әzil-shyny aralas pikir bildirdim osynda, al, key "daryndy" aghayyn maskasyn sheship tastap, talantyn "shashyp" jiberdi. Toqtay qalayyq. "Kim ekenin bilmeseng tariyhqa qara!" - dep jatyr. Tarihta arghy atasy batyr bolmaghan el, auyl joq qazaqta. Rudy tilge tiyek etse de arystanday arghy ata emes, baqa-shayangha ainalghan bergi bizderge aitylghan, úsaqtalyp ketken býgingi "iygi jaqsygha" aitylghan dep qabyldau kerek te, beldesuding qamyn oilamay eldesuge kiriseyik.

Boldym. Danyshpan shyqpaydy menen.

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