"91" turaly súrady...
Aytayyn...
Mening balalarymday ghana órimdey jastar. Óz zamanynyng sәnin qughan jasóspirimder. Auyzdarynan ana sýti keppegen deuge bolady... Qabyrghasy qatyp, búghanaghy bekip, qalyptasyp kele jatqanda TVdaghy ýlken aghalary men apalary olardyng aldaryna neni tosty - sony simirdi... olardy kәris serialdary tәrbiyeledi... sol kórgen "qaharmandaryna" eliktedi.
Elikteu jaghynan jas túrmaq, ýlkenderding ózi aldymyzgha jan salmaymyz. Olargha ne dep kinә artqanday-aqpyz?
Árqaysysynyzdyng dәl solarday órimdey balghyn jasynyz bar - birinizding úlynyz, birinizding qyzynyz, birinizding ini-qaryndasynyz... Sonday jasty laydan alyp, boqqa saldynyzdar, boqtan alyp laygha batyrdynyzdar. Qalay auyzdarynyz barady? Qalay qiyasyzdar?
Siz ben bizding jas kezimizde ne sәn boldy? Kala-kala shalbar ma? Kiydik pe? Kiydik. Banan shalbar ma? Kiydinizder me? Kiydinizder. Shashtarynyzdy jelkege deyin jalbyratyp ósirip, "Bitlz"-ge eliktetinizder me? Eliktedinizder... Soygha she? Oghan da eliktedinizder... Yaghni, jastyqqa tәn minezi ýshin, jastyqqa tәn qateligi ýshin adamdy sottaugha, "óltiruge", "azghyn" dep dattaugha qalay auyzdarynyz barady?
Syrtqy kiyim, forma - ishki mazmúndy sipattay bermeydi. Olardyng syrtqy týri, kiyimi sonday eken dep olardy "gey" deuge moralidyq qaqymyz bar ma? Kózimizben kórip, qolymyzben ústadyq pa? Sahnalyq obraz degen bolady... jaraydy, ol basqa әngime...
Joq, onday obrazdaryn qúptaymyn demeymin. Biraq týsinemin. Qabylday almaymyn, biraq "senderding talghamdaryndy osylay qalyptastyryp tәrbiyelegen qazaq TV-syna qarghys bolsyn" deymin...
"Olay kiyinbender" deuge de qaqym joq. Jeke sharuasy, ata-anasy da emespin. Óz balalarymyzgha sózimiz ótui qiyn qazir... Óz balamday balamen jaghalasyp, olargha auzyma kelgende "ottay" bersem, mening kim bolghanym?
Al jaraydy, olar "namyssyz" eken... últtyq namystan júrday eken... qazaq degen "ÚLY" atqa layyq emes eken...
Sonda Siz ben Biz be ÚLY QAZAQ?
"Últyn sýigen ÚLY QAZAQ" bolsanyz, qaysynyz "Alash" tobyn tyndap qaryq qyp tastadynyz? Kim dәstýrli әn tyndaydy? 10 adam shyqsa - oghan da rahmet... Últtyq kelbeti bar, "Men - Qazaqpyn" dep menmúndalap túrghan "Alashty" nemese "Qonyrdy" barlyq qazaq jaqsy kórip, әnderi auyzdan auyzgha tarap, myndaghan kórermenderi zalgha syimay jatqan kezi boldy ma? Dәstýrli әndi de tyndamaysyzdar ghoy...
Siz ben Bizge únamaydy eken dep, "91"-ding tyndaushysy azayyp ketpeydi, olardy jastar tyndaydy, jaqsy kóredi. Al, ýidegi jasynyzdy "tyndama" dep tyiyp kóriniz...
Bayghústardyng Aqtóbedegi konsertterine "sryv" jasap...
Myqty bolsaq, nege nikabshylardy, hidjabshylardy, saqal qoyma dep bahavittardy tyimaymyz?.. Áriyne, olargha kýshimiz jetpeydi... Mysaly, bizding ýkimet ýsh jýz bәlenbay grant bólip, diny oqudy oqytugha jastardy tartyp jatyr - al ol diny oqudyng ne ekeni bir Allagha ayan... bahavisterding basynda shetelderde oqyp kelgen "imamdar" túrghanyn eskersek - 323 grant bólingen búl diny oqu da kýmәndi, últymyzgha, memleketimizge kelgen "oba".
Qysqasy...
Ónerge qadam basqan jastardyng ónerine tabys tileyik. Elikteu-solyqtauy da basylar, aqyl da toqtatar...
Al kәsibiylikterine dauym joq. Dauystary әdemi, taza, túnyq. Ónerleri órley bersin!
Al, meni talap jender...
* Búryn búnday toptyng baryn bilmeytin edim, Sizderding arqalarynyzda tanystym. Rahmet.

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