Amangeldi Kenshilikúly. Taghdyrmen betpe-bet (jalghasy)
Halyqty qúldyq sanadan qútqarghysy kelgen arystay azamattarymyzdy atyp óltirdik. Tәuelsizdikting arqasynda jerimiz satylyp, yrysymyz jatqa búiyryp, ruhymyz bauyzdalyp ketti. Eger tiri jýrseng qazaq bolyp tughanyna ókinip, Abay keshpegen qasiretke belshennen malshynyp, bireuleri toyyp, bireuleri tonyp sekiretin ruhsyz qoghamnan zapa shegip, qúsalyqtan óler edin. Zamannyng dәl osylay azghyndaluy arghy-bergi ghasyrymyzda bolghan emes. Qogham - jiyirkenishti, zaman - jiyirkenishti, qayda baryp kýn kórem, Múqaghaliy?!
«Rayymbek! Rayymbek!» poemanda sen aqtaban shúbyryndy zamandaghy shanyraghy ortasyna týse jazdaghan qalyng elinning qayghysyna qabyrghang qayysyp, qymyzymyz jauymyzdyng tandayynda, qyzdarymyz dúshpandarymyzdyng borbayynyng astynda ketken nәubatty jyrlap edin.
Aqtaban shúbyryndy,
Qadarsyng qayda baryp túghyryndy?!
Qazaq jeri - alyp bir qara qazan,
Qazanda qayran júrtym quyryldy.
Aqtaban shúbyryndy.
Qarghaghan kim boldy eken ghúmyryndy?
Jortpay túryp, ýirending jyghyludy,
Shappay túryp ýirending tyghyludy.
Aqtaban shúbyryndy,
Aq tuyng jyghyluyly.
Olaq qatyn toqyghan alashaday,
Órmeginning arqauy suyryldy.
Jәnnatyndy jamsatyp jau ornady,
Halyqty qúldyq sanadan qútqarghysy kelgen arystay azamattarymyzdy atyp óltirdik. Tәuelsizdikting arqasynda jerimiz satylyp, yrysymyz jatqa búiyryp, ruhymyz bauyzdalyp ketti. Eger tiri jýrseng qazaq bolyp tughanyna ókinip, Abay keshpegen qasiretke belshennen malshynyp, bireuleri toyyp, bireuleri tonyp sekiretin ruhsyz qoghamnan zapa shegip, qúsalyqtan óler edin. Zamannyng dәl osylay azghyndaluy arghy-bergi ghasyrymyzda bolghan emes. Qogham - jiyirkenishti, zaman - jiyirkenishti, qayda baryp kýn kórem, Múqaghaliy?!
«Rayymbek! Rayymbek!» poemanda sen aqtaban shúbyryndy zamandaghy shanyraghy ortasyna týse jazdaghan qalyng elinning qayghysyna qabyrghang qayysyp, qymyzymyz jauymyzdyng tandayynda, qyzdarymyz dúshpandarymyzdyng borbayynyng astynda ketken nәubatty jyrlap edin.
Aqtaban shúbyryndy,
Qadarsyng qayda baryp túghyryndy?!
Qazaq jeri - alyp bir qara qazan,
Qazanda qayran júrtym quyryldy.
Aqtaban shúbyryndy.
Qarghaghan kim boldy eken ghúmyryndy?
Jortpay túryp, ýirending jyghyludy,
Shappay túryp ýirending tyghyludy.
Aqtaban shúbyryndy,
Aq tuyng jyghyluyly.
Olaq qatyn toqyghan alashaday,
Órmeginning arqauy suyryldy.
Jәnnatyndy jamsatyp jau ornady,
Jatqany anau órtenip qara ormanyn.
Tuyrlyghy turalyp toqym bolyp,
Qanqasy túr qalqiyp qara Ordanyn.
Aqtyq baylap, tabynyp tal-qayyngha,
Ótti kýnin, sor qatyp mandayynda.
Ketti qymyz jauynnyng tandayynda,
Ketti qyzyng jauynnyng borbayynda.
Aqynyna, serine, batyryna,
Tuysyna qimaghan jaqynyna.
Túyaghymen or qazghan túlparlaryn,
Tulap ketti jauynnyng taqymynda.
Nәlet aityp, kesh kirgen aqylyna,
Ana sýting auzyna tatydy ma?
Al, men auyldyng qirap, halyqtyng bosyp, ýisiz-kýisiz qanghyrghan qazaqtyng jer asty, jer ýsti baylyghynyng tonalyp, nesibesining jatqa búiyryp, qayran júrtymnyng taghdyrynyng qara qazanda quyrylghan aqtaban shúbyryndysyn kózimmen kórip, jýregim jylap, janarymnan jas emes, qan sorghalap «Qazaqty sýngdi» jazdym.
«Qazaqstannyng bir ýlken qalasyna bara qalsam, jýregimdi quanysh sezimi emes, kerisinshe qayghy men múng biyleydi. Qazaq bolyp ómir sýruding -qasiret ekenin úghamyn. Qay qalagha barsam da eng aldymen kózime qayyr súrap, qanghyryp, júmyssyz jýrgen qazaq ottay basylady; tәnin satu arqyly sol qaladaghy bir ýlken kóshening atyn shygharghan qazaqtyng qyzdaryn kóremin; araqqa salynyp ainalasyn zәr sasytyp jatqan qazaqty keziktiremin. Adam óltiru, qyz zorlau, úrlyq jasau sekildi auyr qylmystardyng bәri de túrmys-tirshiligi auyr osy qazaqtardyng arasynan shyghyp jatady. Qúdayshylyghyndy aitshy, múnday qazaqty qalaysha sýyge bolady? Ruhany mýgedekke ainalghan búl adamdardyng jan-dýniyesining úsaq bolatyndyghy sonshama, olardy sýngge qansha talpynsanyz da esh nәtiyje shyqpaydy. Álemning ruhany tynysynan súlulyq izdegen sizding biyik janynyz núrly dýniyeni sýigisi keledi. Mine osy sәtte nemis, aghylshyn nemese fransuz bolyp tumaghanyma qatty ókinip, tildesetin qazaq taba almay, kóz jasymdy kóldetip, jylay jazdaymyn». (Amangeldi Kenshilikúly, «Qazaqty sýn» kitabynan)
Jauatyn búlttay týnere bermey, menimen bir uaqyt syrlasshy, aqynym! Men ómirde aqyn qalmaghandyqtan, úry mysyqtay jasyrynyp, úlylyqtyng sәulesin saghynyp, sening eskertkishinning aldyna ólgen Ruhymdy izdep keldim, Múqaghaliy. Kezinde sening asqaq dauysyng sanqyldaghan ómirding biyik aspanynan búl kýnderi ataq-danqqa talasqan qúzghyn qarghalar men biylikke ar-úyatyn, ruhyn satqan bayghústardyng ayanyshty ýni ghana estiledi.
Endeshe jýrektegi qayghymnyn, janymdaghy dertimning senikinen on ese auyr, zamanymnyng jýz ese qiyn ekenin týsinshi, qymbattym. Sen eng bolmaghanda keleshegine senip, aryz jazyp kettin. Al, men bolsam zamana dauylynyng keleshegimdi qayda úshyryp әketip bara jatqanyn da bilmeymin.
Keleshegim! Bar ma, ol? Bar bolsa, mening janym nege ony sezbeydi? Al, joq bolsa, onda ómirlik mәnin joghaltatyn myna bayansyz tirshiliktin endigi uaqytta maghan keregi qansha?
Jaz edim keshe,
Aynalyp kýzge baram ba!?
Jalyn joq,
Ot joq, jasyghan myna janarda.
Auytqyp ketti, aimalap túrghan samal da,
Keulep túr mine,
Dauyl ma, әlde boran ba?
(Jalghasy bar)
«Abay-aqparat»