Men bala kýnimde estushi edim, bizding qazaq orysty kórse, kýlushi edi, "ói, enendi úrayyn, orys, jaman sasyq orys" dep, nemisti kórse, úrsushy edi, "onbaghan fashist" dep, amerikandyq kórse, jamandaushy edi, "oydan-qyrdan jiylghan ónsheng teksizder" dep, qytay kórse, dattaushy edi, "qúrt-qúmyrsqa jegen kәpir shýrshit" dep...

Aghalarymyz anyz qylushy edi: "Bizding ata-babamyz saq-ghúndar altynnan ton kiygen, Edil qaghan Europany eniretken, Móde qaghan Qytaydy móniretken, Kýltegin babam kóp elge ýkim etken, Shynghys hanymyz dýniyeni titiretken, Beybarys súltan Mysyrdy kýnirentken, Abylay han eki dýniyeni yghyr etken..." dep.

Sonda men oilaushy edim: E, Qúday, bizden basqa halyqtyng bәri antúrghan, sorly, bayghús eken ghoy, eng tәuir, myqty, eng batyr halyq biz ekenbiz dep, әlgi aitylghan sózderdi bir ýlken qyzyq kórip, quanyp kýlushi edim...
Endi qarap túrsam, orystyng bizge qylmaghany joq, istemegen zorlyghy joq, jasamaghan óneri joq, nemisting oilap tappaghan mәshiynesi joq, dýniyege kórsetpegen ýlgisi joq, amerikandyqtyng әlemde biylemegen, tyrnaghyn batyrmaghan eli joq, baylyqtyn, jaqsylyq, janalyqtyng bәri sonda, ózimiz jek kóretin qysyq kóz, qara qytaydyng shygharmaghan búiymy joq, bizge satpaghan nәrsesi joq, qazaqqa istemegen qorlyghy joq.

Onyng bәri - birin-biri quyp qor bolmay, sharua quyp, óner tauyp, bosqa quyp sóilemey, ghylym izdep, mal tauyp zor bolghandyq.
Olargha aitar sózde joq, biz olardyng qúly, kýni qúrly da joqpyz. Áytpese, "orys qúrtady", "nemis shyrqady", "amerika jyrtady", "qytay túqyrtady" degen qorqaq minez qaydan shyqty?

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