Búnykining túmsyghy aldynghy mashinanyng qúiysqanyn tirey toqtaghan. Endi ónmendese ókshesin basyp keterdey. Adymy ashylmaydy. Sәl sheginip ne on, ne sol qatargha kiyip keter de mýmkindik joq. Qylmayqannyng qyzghynan qashqaqtaghan arttaghynyng qolaqpany qol apartpaydy. Búdan birer minut búryn.

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Almatynyng byrshyghan auasynan men-zeng bop, úiqy qashsa da, dene auyrlap, jayalyghyna oranyp, iylektelip jata túrghyng kelgen. Onyng ýstine kýndiz zymyray almay jymyrayyp irgende túratyn da qoyatyn, týn balasynda qúlaghyndy egeumen qajap, dabylyna dauyl ornatqanday yshqyna, qyshqyra shabatyn mashinalardyng gýjili jәne bar. Batysyng men shyghysyng battasqansha dónbekshiysing kelip. Sóitip bapty úiqy baquatty júrttyng balasyna ghana enshilidey, toqaldan tumaghanyndy saqalyng agharghansha dәleldey almay óterine sene bastaghan shaqta keshikken tolghattay zaryqtyryp baryp tang atady-au. Tang atqanda qúyanyng ústaghanday qirap jatqanyn. Sodan son...

Búnykining túmsyghy aldynghy mashinanyng qúiysqanyn tirey toqtaghan. Endi ónmendese ókshesin basyp keterdey. Adymy ashylmaydy. Sәl sheginip ne on, ne sol qatargha kiyip keter de mýmkindik joq. Qylmayqannyng qyzghynan qashqaqtaghan arttaghynyng qolaqpany qol apartpaydy. Búdan birer minut búryn.

Kóshede

Almatynyng byrshyghan auasynan men-zeng bop, úiqy qashsa da, dene auyrlap, jayalyghyna oranyp, iylektelip jata túrghyng kelgen. Onyng ýstine kýndiz zymyray almay jymyrayyp irgende túratyn da qoyatyn, týn balasynda qúlaghyndy egeumen qajap, dabylyna dauyl ornatqanday yshqyna, qyshqyra shabatyn mashinalardyng gýjili jәne bar. Batysyng men shyghysyng battasqansha dónbekshiysing kelip. Sóitip bapty úiqy baquatty júrttyng balasyna ghana enshilidey, toqaldan tumaghanyndy saqalyng agharghansha dәleldey almay óterine sene bastaghan shaqta keshikken tolghattay zaryqtyryp baryp tang atady-au. Tang atqanda qúyanyng ústaghanday qirap jatqanyn. Sodan son...

Shappama órt týskendey apyl-ghúpyl kiyinip, jazyp ketkenderin adam úghyp bolmaytyn bytyqy-shytyqy, biraq aitsa aiyzyndy qandyryp, payyzyndy týgendep berushi edi dep zamandastary estelik soghatyn ataqty synshynyng atyndaghy kóshening júp jaq basynan sanaghanda әlde tórtinshi, әlde besinshi túrghan qotyr «hrushevkadan» shygha taksy ústadym. Týiesin berseng biyesin qosa súraytyn Almatynyng auzy ýlken arbakeshterine ne daua, ózim qúralpy qara qazaq ózi aitqan púlyna jýgindirip, salyp aldy. Tómen qaray eki kvartal qúldadyq. Sodan ongha búrylyp, Tiymeryazev kóshesine shygha bere kólik keptelisine úryndyq. Jipsiz baylandy degen osy shyghar. Keptelisti keyde «tyghyn» deydi. May qúiryqtyng ortasyna tyghyn keptelgendey bir orynda typyrshyghan әldekimning qoyghany bolu kerek. Tyghynnan yghyrym shyghyp, terezege telmirip otyrmyn. Kýni kólikte ótip, dými mýiiz bolghan tizginshige janym ashidy. Jýikesin jol mýjigen bayghústardyn, tap bir әkesining tórin bótenning bóksesi iyemdenip ketkendey, qaptaly sәl tarylsa aryldasa ketetin boqtauyq minezderine taghy bir ret qol qoyghandaysyn. Basqalarmen jambas janastyra ilbip, kezekti baghdarshammen de baqúldasqanbyz. Tórt joldyng týilisinen óte bere, qúryq tastam jerdegi aq bauyr avtobustar úryq tastaghan balyqsha ylq etip toqtap, jylp etip jónelip jatqan ayaldamanyng etegin iyiskey irkildik...

Jolayryq sayyn ayaldama. Ayaldama sayyn avtobusqa emingen qara-qúrym. Ayaldama sayyn zymyrap kep toqtaghan avtobustan zymyransha ytqyp shyghyp, býlkildey jóneletin júrt. Almatynyng adamdary ayandy úmytyp qalghanday. Óitpesine qoya ma búl Almaty. Búl Almaty týske deyin malshylyq, týsten keyin jalshylyq qylmasan, alaqan jayyp, auyz ashqannyng aghayyny emes. Eki iyghyndy júlyp jep, eki qaptalyndaghyny, ekpeting men kótegeyindegini qosa qarbytpasang qarang qalghanyn.

Hosh. Shashyn jayyp jiberipti. Qúlaqtyng yghynan susyp týsip, sol jaq jýzin kólegeylegen úzynsha kekilding ar jaghynan búzyq qoghamgha qyzygha qarap túrghanday kórindi. Qúddy búrynghynyng qaraly súluy jaraly janyn shýberekke týiip, bergi ómirge ótip ketkendey. Toqyma jeydesining ónir oiyghy tebingidey. Alqa tósi aua jútyp túrghany tap qazirdey alqynady kep. Qysqa kenep yubkasynyng etegi qaqpaqtan qarysqa juyq joghary jatyr. Qalaqtay aq sandar da ashqaraq, aldamshy әlemge alaqtay qaraydy. Álde kerisinshe me.

...Qyz qol kóterip túr eken. Kólik beykýnә súludyng bashpaylaryn basa jazdap toqtady. Men jaq tereze tyzyldap tómen týsti. Búiyrghany osy shyghar degendey asa manghaz keyippen búrala býktelgen qyz qúlaq týbimnen syzyluynan sybyry basym ýnmen «Aghay, asyghyp túrmyn, KazGU-ge deyin jetkizip tastanyzshy» deydi. Ózi de jelinqaptyng jiyeginen iyek asyra syrtqa ónmendegen qos anar biz jaqqa qaray aqtarylyp týserdey kilk-kilk etedi. Enkeygen iyesining ebimen kenep yubkanyng aldynghy etegi tizege qaray syrghyghanda artqy jaghy sәnireyip, bar dýniyeni býkpesiz jayyp salghanyn oisha topshylap otyrmyn. Qoryqqannan qúmgha basyn tyqqan týieqús keldi kóz aldyma. Baghanadan auzyndaghy aq iyti men kók iyti ainalasyna abalay soqtyghyp, jaghalay syqpyrtyp kele jatqan taksisting mandayy jazylyp, ezui qúlaqqa qaray órmelep barady eken. Qyz ótinishin jerge tastay almaghan mәrt neme «jaraydysyn» iyzeng etken iyegimen úqtyrdy. «Qaryndastyng ornyna otyryp aldym-au» - deymin qarap otyrmay. Kólik iyesi kónildi. Yrjyn-yrjyng etedi.

Kafede

Júmystan song júghym bolar ortagha qaray jylystaghysy kep túratyn zamandastyng әreketine bereket tilegishpiz. Óitkeni ýiden qyryq qadam shygha qúryq kórmegen asauymsyp, qoyqangha basatyn «zandy mýsәpirlerdin» aulymen Baukeng ekeuimizding de qotanymyz bir ghoy. Keshe arsalandap aldynnan shyqqan, býgin shaujayynda, erteng eteginnen tartqylary saghan da, Qúdaygha da ayan tarshylyqtyng uayymyn syragha shylap, bir istik kәuәpting kýshimen tezekke ainaldyrudyng kezegin birde ol, birde men púldap degendey, shuly kafening nuyna sýngy beremiz. Ondaghy júrt qoyyndaghysy oiyndaghysynday bolmay joq izdep, eles qughandar. Taghy bireuleri bererde jyltyr kóz, jylmaghay jýz, alarda jayyn auyz dayashylardy júmsap, qolbalanyng qyzyghyn kóruge kelgendey kórinedi.

...Joq izdep, eles qughandardy aitsaq.

Sylqym kelinshekterding qúlqyn sәriden baqayshyghyn boyatudaghy baqay esebi - inirde jan bitip, alageuimde alasúryp jatatyn Almatynyng ekinshi tynysynda iyek qyshytarlyq siqyr barday. Búlardyng kýndizgi shandyryndy sozyp, arqandy jauyr qylatyn batpan júmystyng batpaghyn sylyp tastarlyq qylyqqa qamshy basary sondyqtan. Sondyqtan sen de ol jerge súlu izdep barmaysyn. Jeti qat kókten otyn ap týsken prometeyimsip «jylu shasha» barasyn, qúdayy qoldaghy barynnyng bodauyna ne baylayyn dese, izim-qayym qúlyn kezding izine týsip, qúldyranday shabugha peyil, seyilshil úrghashygha. Sen qúday emessin, biraq Qúday jaratqan tiri adamysyng ghoy. Tiri adam tirshiligin isteydi. Olar bolsa ótpegen kýni ótken kýninen qysqara týsken sayyn jelik kernep, jetpegen jerin jalghay, jamay týsuge qúmar-aq. Sen bolsang kerbezdigin kense jútyp, er jigitting toyatyn qamdaugha әuelde qúlqy bolghanmen parqyna jete almay, sosyn uaqyt-jegining qara tabasynda jan shyjghyrylyp bara jatqan son, qasang tirlikting qalybynda búlqynghan masang jýzdi kelinshekterding eminshek kóniline kóbirek shoq tastaugha tyrysasyn. Byrtysqan kónilding qyrtysyn jazu eki bas, tórt qolgha ermek bolghay dep. Sosyn úrghan sayyn semiretin borsyqsha, qylqyldatqan sayyn búryndap sóilep, búrymdylardyng búlynghyr ómirinde búrynnan bar kisishe aqtarylasyn-ay kelip. Tap bir jigitting jiliktisin aldyna keltirgendey olar da shat, qaqpaylamay-aq qasynysugha jarap qalghandaryna sen de shadyman. Alda talaydyng úrlyghyn etegimen basyp, syrt kózge syghalatpaghan Almatynyng úza-a-aq týni...

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Kensege kirseng qityghyp keneske kirmey, ainalasyn jalpaqtatyp qoyghan aduyn qúdaghisha qazdiyp otyrghandary. It kórgen eshki bastanyp odyraya qarasyp, jaqtyrmaghandaryn janarymen úqtyrady. IYmenshektey basyp shetki bireuining aldyna barasyn. Jón súraghangha jol siltep, qúraq úshugha arlanatyn synay tanytyp, sózderin sanap tastaydy. Azdap jibiytin shyghar degen esek dәmemen birdene dep mysqyldaghan bolasyn. Mysqylyna pysqyryp ta qaramaydy. Amal joq, ol shanshylyp otyrghanda, sen qaraday janshylyp otyrasyn. Kense zany ensendi ezip bara jatady. Qysqasy sen odan, ol senen qútylghansha asyq. Bir qyzyghy shetterinen súlu. Biraq meyirimnen menmendigi basym súrqiya súlulyq. Sodan da bolar baysaldy degenning bayyzyn qashyryp, jelikkendi jolyna súlatatyn kense sәulimderi, ýidi-ýiine sopiyp jalghyz qaytatyny...

Almatynyng erte keletin kóktemi Alatau bir silkinse-aq dýr etip etekke qúlay salatynday kórinedi. Arqanyng kóktemi Almatynyng kóktemindey emes, shuaghyn púldap ótkizedi. Púldap ótkizse de jyrghap qalushy edik. Ýziliste boy tonazytar kólenkeden yghysyp, kýneske shýpirleytinbiz. Sondayda synghyrlay kýlisip janymyzdan ótip bara jataqan ýlken klastyng qyzdary toqtay qap, «i-i-iy tәtti kýshik» dep betinnen shymshyp alar edi. Áyeldik instinkteri oyanyp, әlemish әlemning әldebir ózgeshe әserin anday bastaghan boyjetkenderding әnsheyinde sýikep ótse de sipap ótkendey bolatyn sýirik sausaqtary shymshuyrday qadalghanda shym etip qan jýgirip, jýreging tap sol jerden soqqanday bolatyn. Kóktemmen birge óktemsy jetken әdemi sezimge ókpe aitpaq túrmaq, qabaq shytugha qauqary bolmay, qalbalaq qaqqan qyzdargha yzbar shashudan aulaqsyn. Qayta tәtti ekening belgisiz, kýshik ekening belgisiz, antarylyp túrghanyn.

...Esh pendesining kóz jasyna senbeytin Almatynyng әrindi satpasang tórindi saylay almaytyn ashy tirliginen it silikpesi shyqqan keyipkerlerim, tәttisi mol «kýshik» kezdegi kóktemdi ansay ma eken osy...