Orysqa otarlanghannan bastap qazaqtyng iytining túqymy da ózgerdi. Qora kýzetip, qoy jayatyn mang tóbetter men qoyannan tartyp qasqyr alatyn tazylardyng sany siyrep ketti. Siyremegen deshi?! IYesimen birge ne kórmedi deysin?! Aqtar men Qyzyldardyng qyrghyny, otyryqshylyq, asharshylyq, soghys azdyrmay qaytsin?!

Songhy otyz jylda da auzynan aq irkit aghatyn armandaghy kýige jetken joq. Toqyraudan tozyp shyghyp, jappay jekeshelendirudin, jabayy kapitalizmnyng zardabyn tartty. Auyldan qalagha aghylghan elmen birge «marginal» atandy. Qala syrtyndaghy sayajaylardy, kenes zamanynan qalghan eski nysandardy panalady. Sergeldeng kýy keship, ashtyqtan búralyp, jýregi qarayyp, qauqarsyz balalargha әlimjettik jasay bergen son, ýstinen shaghym kóbeyip, aqyr ayaghy ókimetting basqaruyna ótti. El budjetine masyl boldy. Odan da býiiri shyqqan joq.

Jemqorlardyng salyqtan jinalghan aqshadan bólingen qarjyny itayaqtaryna jetkizbey auzynan jyryp әketip jatqanyn aityp shaghymdanayyn dese, tili joq. Onashagha baryp úlyp, tisin aqsityp, qúr yryldaghannan basqa kórseter qauqary joq. Túqymdastarynyng biri tapa-tal týste qan kóshede atylyp, biri tiridey úitylyp, endi biri mashinagha sýirelip, kóresini kórgenin qalay úmytsyn?! Jýregi berishtenbey, qatygezdenbey ne onsyn?! Sheteldik qúqyq qorghaushylar kórip jatqan qorlyqtaryn jipke tizbelep, aiday әlemge jariya etip, arasha týspegen de túqymy bir jolata qúryp keter me edi qayter edi?!

Solardyng qarsha boratqan shaghymynan keyin «Januarlargha jauapkershilikpen qarau taraly» zang qabyldandy. Endi eshkim eskertusiz oq ata almaydy. Búrynghy «atu» sózining orynyn «aulau» sózi basqanymen, әli de qauip seyilgen joq. Adamnan aila asqan ba?! Shymkent pen Astana bastamashy bolyp, pedofilderge himiyalyq kastrasiya jasaghan siyaqty itterdi pishtiruge de qyruar qarjy ajyratty. Qarap túrsang itterdi tәrtipke saluda qyp-qyzyl aqsha! Ókimet ónirlerge jylyna it aulau ýshin milliardtar bóledi. Ol aqshany iygeru ýshin kәdimgi jol, mektep salghan siyaqty mýddeli mekeme smetalyq qújat dayyndaydy, tender oinatylady.

Áy, itterding ózderinde de bar. Shetelding iyti siyaqty zamanauy tirlikke, jyly bólmede, divanda kógildir ekrannan mulitfilm kórip, adamsha tirlik keshuge kónbeydi. Dalany, kezbelikti ansap túrady. Zamanauy ómirge ýirengen túqymdastaryn kóre almaydy. Talap tastaghysy kelip túrady. Bәrin ait ta birin ait: it boludyng qiyny-ay?!

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