Zamandy adamnyn, adamdy zamannyng janghyrtyp, qúbyltyp jatqan kezinde óleng - ómirdi, ómir-ólendi eske salady. Ózin tappaghan qalamger oqyrmanyn da tappaydy. Sanana sәule, zerdene aqyl bolyp qúiylatyn oily jyrlar kez kelgen oqyrman ýshin azyq. Ómir - degenine kónbeytin tylsym tirshilik. Kiltin tabu qiyn syr sandyq. Ertening týgili býgingi keshting qalay bataryn bilmeysin. Adam taghdyry da týrlishe. Ol da aitqanyna kónip, aidaghanyna jýretin astyndaghy at emes. Sol ómir syr sandyghynan, adam ghúmyrynyng jana qyrlaryn ashyp, jyr qashau aqynnyng aqynyna ghana búiyrady. 

Ádette kemshilikke kenshilik jasap, kónilge qarap, oghan soqtyqpay ainalyp ótip ketu onay da, betpe-bet kelip qaqtyghysu qiyn ghoy.

Men Tóken agha Ibragimovty búrynnan tanyp bilip jýrsem de, taghdyrymmen betpe-bet kele almay, nalyp jýrgen kezimde jolyqtym. Syrtymnan ghana tanityn Tóken agha jyly qabaq tanytyp qabyldaghanymen bas-ayaghyma syn kózben qarap otyryp jaghdayyma qanyq bolghan son;

­- Aynalayyn syrtynnan ólendering arqyly tanyp-bilip, ózindi súrastyryp jýrushi edim. Jaqsy kezdestik. Ólendering jaqsy, әitse de, әiel adamgha óleng jazu, poeziyamen ainalysu onay sharua emes. Aqyngha taghdyrdy jaratushy bet aldy bere salmaydy. «Qasiretti kýnderden qasiyetti dýnie tuady» deydi qazaq. Sening ómir jolyndy bilmesem de ólenderinnen tanyp otyrmyn. Eger әdebiyettke kelem desen, onyng qiyndyghy men auyrtpalyghyna tózuing kerek. Tóze almaymyn deseng әdebiyetting shetin bylghamay, osy bastan ketkening jón – dedi.

Kabiynetke ýmitpen quanyp kirgenimmen kýirep, sýlderimdi sýirep shyqtym. «Mýmkin menen shynynda da eshtene shyqpaytyn shyghar, bosqa әure bolmayyn» degen oy keldi. Úzaq oilanyp, Tóken aghanyng aldyna qayta bardym. Seldir shashyn artyna bir qozghap qoyyp, Abay, Múhtar, Shәkir, Tólegen, Múqaghali, Qadyr syndy alyptar jayly úzaq әngimeledi. Erekshe yqylaspen tynday otyryp, búl adamda sarqylmaytyn bir jiger bar ekenin úqtym. Shabytyma quat berip, shabytyma qozghau salghan da sol jiger boldy. Sharasy sarandau bolghanymen ayaly kózderinen núr qúiylyp, әserlenip sóileydi eken. Shynynda da belgili әdebiyet tarlandary Múqaghalidan bastap, Qadyr Myrzaliyev, Múhtar Shahanov, Túmanbay Moldaghaliyev, Rymghaly Núrghaliyev syndy aqyn-jazushylardyng shygharmalaryna syn jazyp, Tynyshtyqbek Ábdikәkimov, Aybek Sapyshev, Ábubәkir Qayranov siyaqty aqyndardy sóz siqyryna tәrbiyelep, Túrsynghazy Rahimov, Bolat Sybanov, Keldenbay Ólmesekov, Baqyt Ýderbaeva, Serik Malaevtay óner tarlandarynyng qamqorshysy bolyp jýrgen belgili jazushy, synshy, óner zertteushisimen qatar otyryp, pikir talastyru biz siyaqty әli bastyqpaghan jastardy búidadan jetektegen taylaqtay jeldirtip ala jóneledi eken. Kemshiligindi kenshilikpen qabyldap, aqyl-kenes berip otyratyn osynday aghalardyng yqpalymen әdebiyetke keldim.

Shiyrek ghasyrgha juyq uaqytyn Abay múrajayynyng qara shanyraghynda ótkizip, oghan sinirgen enbegi, jampozdyghy jayynda aitar әngime bólek. Filosofiyalyq oi-tolghamdary men әdebiyet, óner zertteu maqsatyndaghy enbekteri de men emes, ózining tústastary aita alatyn bólek әngime.

Al mening aitayyn degenim – óner adamdary ýshin qashanda janyn salyp jýretindigi. Tek әdebiyet ólkesinde ghana emes, ónerding qay salasynda da qamqorshy bola biletindigi.  Kýlli ómir, onyng ishinde óner dýniyesi  Abay tilimen aitqanda «saqalyn satqan kәriden enbegin satqan jasty» artyq kóretindigi. Ónerdi sýietinderdi sýietindigi. Sondyqtan da sonynan ergen túyaq – jetkinshek buyngha әkelik qamqorlyqpen, aghalyq mahabbatpen qaraydy.

Halqymyzda asyl sóz kóp. Sonyng biri «agha» degen sóz. Men Tóken aghany ýnemi osylay ataymyn. Osy bir auyz sózde ýlken úlaghattylyq jatqanymen «aghalyqqa» layyq jandar azayyp barady. Tóken aghanyng boyynan bolmysynan aghalyqqa tәn mol qasiyet tabylady. Onyng aghalyghy adamnyng azamattyq aghalyghy, adamgershilikting aghalyghy, jazushy-synshynyng aghalyghy.

Ádette aghalardyng ýlgisi mol, ózinshe ghajap taghlymy men tәrbiyesi tausylmaytyn shejire mektep. Bizder – Júmabek Qambarov, Gýlshat Eruova, Berik Omarov, Tolu Sembaev syndy keyingi tolqyndar sol ardaqty aghalar tobynan qalyptasqan úlaghatty mektepting týlegimiz. Qinalghanda, quanghanda qasymyzdan tabylar aqylshymyz, qamqorshymyz bolyp qoldap, qorghap, ishtey erkeletip, kýbirlese sóilesip jýredi.

Tóken aghanyng ómir joly, әrbir qyry, әrbir syry ózine ghana tәn qasiyetimen erekshelenedi. Óitkeni onyng býkil ómiri – óner. Býkil óneri – ómir. Kezinde osynday ómir shyndyghyna den qoyghan Abay; «Jýrekte kóp qazyna bar - bәri qyzyq» degendi aitqan. Jaratushynyng ózi bergen erekshe núrdyng arqasynda kónil jadyratyp, oy sergiter әdemi әngimenin, súhbattyng bastaushysy, tamasha úiymdastyrushysy.

Ár adamnyng onashada óz oiymen ózi qalar onasha shaqtary men sәtteri kóp bolady. Ózimen-ózi ishtey tildesip, tirshilikting kýibenimen jýrip, ómirding qalt ketken jerlerin kónil kýiine salyp terbeletini bar. Tóken aghanyng ózi aitqanday; « Men óleng jazghanmen tikeley óleng joldaryn túraqty óleng joldaryn qughan jan emes edim. Ólennen góri óleng turaly syn jazghandy artyq kóretinmin.Jazudyng joly da solay bastalghan. Ólendegi quanystardy ózimdikindey kóp quanyshtaymyn. Kezi kelip qalghanda óleng yrghaqty joldar kelip qalady» deytini bar.   Maqsat – kónildi tynshytpaghan sezim qozghalysyn sózge týsirip, kókirekti bosatu ekenin de jasyrmaydy.

Kәdimgi  ansarymyz auyp, aiyzymyz qanyp, alghash auyzgha alatynymyz mahabbat taqyryby. Tóken aghanyng jyr joldaryndaghy núrly jobasy mahabbat mәngiligi. «Oymen onasha» jinaghyndaghy myna bir joldar esh aqyn jyrlarynan kem emes;

Sol janardan úshqyn týsip armangha,

Bayyz tauyp, sabyr boydy alghanda.

IYek artyp, men de ýmitke selt ettim,

Jer ortasy jasqa kelip qalghanda.

Nemese;

Mahabbat degen ózge emes,

Sarylyp kýtken saghynysh.

Bauraghan jandy jýrekte,

Ayta almay jýrgen jalynysh.

- dep kýrmeui qiyn kýrdeli ómirding shytyrman shyndyqtaryn shudaday shiratyp, shiyrshyq ata jyr joldaryna kóshiredi. Kýndelikti ýirenshikti qonyr tirshilikten qanshama syr ashyp, súlulyq tauyp kónilindi ózgeshe kýige bóleydi. Bir basynda san ghashyqtyng jýregi bar aqynnyng jastyq mahabbat jyrlary, dala aruymen jolyqqan sәttegi tebirenisi ólenmen ghana suretteuge tәn siyaqty. Jan sarayynyng jiћazyn jyrgha qosyp, jarqyrata jazyp kónil pernelerin dәl basqan. 

Tóken agha  shalqar shabytynan  tughan tolqyndy jyrlary hat, óleng týrinde órilip, «Tolqyn tolghau», «Oymen onasha» siyaqty jinaqtargha negiz boldy. «Aqyn nege auyrdy», «Qasymgha», «Farizagha» jәne ekspromtty jyrlary  siz ben bizge jan syryn aqtaryp, óz ómir jolynda kezdesken ayauly adamdardy, solardyng ghúmyr boyy úmytylmas asyl beynelerin, barsha izgilik, irilik, adamgershilik, meyirim-qayyrym, imandylyq siyaqty qadir-qasiyetterin aishyqtay týsedi. Adamdy peri soqqan pendelikten, ar attaghan aramdyqtan, jan jaralaytyn, jazyqsyzdy qaralaytyn jaltandyqtan aulaq jýruge negizdeytin ólender onashadaghy oy ermegine ainalghan.

Qasym Amanjolov aitpaqshy, «Aqynnyng óleni – ómirbayany».  Ózi jýrip ótken kezenning kelbetin jadynda jaqsy saqtap, oiynda tolghap, kóp shygharmalaryna arqau etedi.

Qay halyqtyng da ómiri ónerimen  úzaratynyn úqtyrugha úmtylghan tilekten tughan ólender men sóz iyirimderi Tóken agha shygharmashylyghynda kóp.  Oy - armany halyq taghdyrymen tamyrlasyp, bite qaynasyp ketken kezde ghana ónerding ómirshendigi artyp, últtyng ruhany baylyghyna ainalary aqiqat.

Aqynnyng shygharmashylyghy onyng bel balasy.

Endeshe ol avtordyng býkil bolmysyn jalghannyng jalpaghyna jayatyn deldal. Úly Abay. «Óleng shirkin ósekshi júrtqa jayar» degendi osyghan oray aitqan. Shygharmashylyghy arqyly aqynnyng júmbaq jan dýniyesin, minez - qúlqyn, oy - armanyn birden bile qoyasyz. Shygharmadan onyng shyn beynesi ainadaghyday aiqyn kórinedi. Aqyn ataulynyn   jan syry da, shyny da shygharmalarynyng negizgi arqauyna ainalady.

Ayta bersem, shygha beretin siyaqty. Bir jolghy әngimede bәrәn tauysyp aitu mýmkin de emes, әri barlyghy birdey taban astynda oigha orala da bermeydi. Jasyryp jabar býkpesi joq ónerge degen talaby bar adamgha keudesin keng ashyp, qúshaq jayyp qarsy alar ardaqty agha әrbir ónersýier qauymnyng kónil týkpirinen óz baghasyn alary aqiqat.

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