Jeltoqsan oqighasy talay taghdyrdy basqa arnagha týsirdi. Qazaq jastarynyng jankeshtiligi, erik-jigeri alyp imperiyany taghynan shayqaltyp, bodandyq búghauynan bosaugha bastama jasap berdi. Áli kýn tarihy baghasy tolyq naqtylanbaghan osynau qandy oqigha ótken ghasyr qoynauynan ózgeshe syr aqtaratynday...

Belgili jazushy Ábish Kekilbayúly 1986 jylghy Jeltoqsan oqighasynyng 10 jyldyghyna oray jazghan maqalasynda jeltoqsannyng әleumettik-ekonomikalyq jәne sayasy astaryna ýnile otyryp, tarihy manyzyna terenirek toqtalyp ótedi. «Maqsaty, minezi, basyp-janshylu әdisi, alghysharty, sebep-saldary jәne manyzy jóninen jastardyng Jeltoqsandaghy dýmpui – qarapayym oqighalar qataryna jatqyzugha bolmaytyn ózgeshe tarihy fenomen», - degen bagha beredi. Qorytyndylay kele «Jeltoqsan oqighasy – azapty tarihymyzdyng ashugha toly aqtyq beti, azat tarihymyzdyng arman men aibyngha toly alghashqy beti. Ol – bayaghy ata-babalarymyzdan bermen qaray kókeykesti bolyp kele jatqan birshama múrattarymyzgha jetkizer jarqyn betbúrysymyzdyng joyqyn betashary», - deydi ol.

IYә, búl oqigha ghasyrlargha sozylghan ata-baba qandy joryghynyn, dabyldy-dauyldy kýresinin  zandy jalghasy edi. Biyl – Jeltoqsan oqighasyna 30 jyl. Osynau aituly oqighanyng negizgi ortalyghy Almaty shahary bolsa da, bas qaladan bastalghan tolqu elimizding әr týkirinde jalghasyp jatty. Solardyng biri – Taldyqorghan qalasy. Búl ónirdegi oqighanyng qalay bolghany, jastardyng sol kezdegi oi-armany turasynda hәm ózining basynan keshken azapty kýnderi haqynda bilu ýshin Azbergenova Marjan Elgezekqyzyn sózge tartqan edik.

Ótken ómirdi qayta qauzau, eski jarany eske týsiru kimge bolsyn onay soqpasy anyq. Qazaqtyng qaysar qyzy sóiley bastaghanda keshegi tarih kóz aldymyzda kólbeng qaqqanday boldy. Ayaday shahardaghy aibyndy jastardyng erik-jigerge toly beynesi eles bergendey boldy.

Endeshe, Marjan Elgezekqyzynyng (surette) ózine sóz bereyik:

...Men sol kezderi Taldyqorghan qalasyndaghy  № 5 SPTU-dyn  2 kursynda oqyp  jýrgen edim. 1986 jyldyng 16 jeltoqsan kýni keshkisin «Almaty qalasynda Ortalyq komiytette D.A.Qonaevty zeynetkerlikke shagharypty, ornyna bóten últtyng adamyn basqa jaqtan alyp kelipti» degendi estidik. Men ol kezde bar joghy 17 jastaghy boyjetken edim. Plenumnyng sheshimine ainalamyzdaghy adamdar ýlken narazylyq bildirip, taldau jasalynyp, әr týrli әngimeler bastalyp ketti. Barlyghymyzdyng oilaghan oiymyz bir jerden shyghyp jatty: «Nege basqa últ ókili, nege basqa jaqtan әkelgen, ózimizding últtan  el  basqaratyn  birde-bir kondidatura tabylmaghany ma,  Ortalyq komiytetting sayasaty neni kózdep otyr?» - osy oy әrbir sanaly azamattyng ashu- yzasyn  tudyrdy.

Osynday әngime jýrip jatqanda, bizding jataqhanada, vahter bolyp júmys isteytin Ghaliya apay «Bizding bos әngimemizden eshtene shyqpaydy, odanda bәrimiz alangha shyghayyq» dep úsynys berdi. Eger biz beybit jaghdayda alangha shyqsaq, mýmkin ýkimet oilanatyn shyghar dep oiladyq. Almatyda halyq  jappay ereuilge shygha bastapty degen әngime de jeldey esti. Oiymda eshtene joq. Jataqhanadaghy estimegen zamandastaryma habarlap, bәrimiz jatahananyn  aldyna jinalyp, algha qaray jyljydyq. Sóitip, jol-jónekey, «Qúrylys», «Mal  dәrigerlik», «Zang tehnikumy», «Medisinalyq uchiliyshe», «Pedagogikalyq institutyna» baryp, jastardy ózimizben birge alangha shyghugha shaqyrdyq. Estigen, bilgen student jastar qarsy kelmey, biz bastaghan topqa qosylyp, qalanyng ortalyq alanyna jinaldyq. Bәrimizde bir maqsat: Nege  bóten últtyng ókili ortalyq komiytetti basqarady?

Osylaysha narazylyq bildiremiz, óz talap-tilegimizdi kópshilik aldynda aitamyz dep jatqanda týngi 1-ler shamasynda alangha jabdyqtalghan millisiya qyzmetkerleri men soldattar jәne ýkimet adamdary kelip, jastardy  yaghni, ereuilge shyqqandardy qorshaugha aldy. Adamnyng sanasyna simaytyn úrys-keris bastalyp ketti. Jәy ghana beybit ereuilge shyqqan halyqty, kelgen adamdardy ózderi qozghady. Jaghdaydy ushyqtyryp jiberdi. Qoldaryna týsken adamdardy ayamay úryp-soghyp, qinady. Esime týsse egilem. Búnday jaghdaydy endi qayta adamzattyng basyna bermesin. Biz ereuilge eldin, jerdin, qazaqtyn, memleketting mýddesin saqtau ýshin kelgenimizdi aityp týsindire almadyq. Amal qansha, ereuil erding qazasymen, eliktey súlu jas arulardyng azasymen ayaqtaldy. Bәrimizdi quyp-soghyp, keyin shegindirip, ústalghandardy qamaugha aldy. Osylaysha, qamaugha alynghandardyng qatarynda mende ketim...

Tang atysymen «ýkimetke qarsy shyghushy búzaqylargha» arnalghan jinalys boldy. Jinalysta men óz oiymdy esh qinalmay aittym. El tizginin ústar bir qazaqtyng tabylmaghany ma dep ashyq súraq qoydym. Mende ishtey senimdilik bar edi. Ózimdi ójettilik tannyttym dep oiladym. Biraq jinalys jasaghan adamdargha búl oiym asa únay qoymady. Men sóilep bola bergende jinalys jýrgizip otyrghan adam jaghymnan shapalaqpen bir tartyp jiberdi de, meni dereu qamaugha búiryq berdi. Oqys shapalaqtan basym ainalyp, qúlaghymnyng týbi qatty shanshyp, esimnen  tanyp qaldym. Meni úrghan adamnyng qolynyng qattylyghy sonsha, esimdi әreng jidym. Qasiretti de, azapty kýnder bastaldy...

Átten, dýniye-ay, keudege tolghan ashu-yza, qorlanghan arman ashy jas bop kózden tamshylaydy... Panasyz qalghan jas qyzdy izder, júbanysh, medeu bolar adam da joq. Osynday azaptan ajyratyp alar әkemning de joqtygha jýrekke auyr múng tastaydy. Endi mening ómirim ne bolady?! Mynalargha men sonsha ne istep qoydym? O dýniyege erterek attanyp ketken әkemdi oilaymyn. Qorghanysh bolar bir jannyng joqtyghy jangha batady. Sanada ýrey, qorqynysh pen әkeme degen saghynysh sezimi qatar jýrip jatqanday. Ákem de óz últynyng asyl azamaty edi ghoy. Azbergenov Elgezekti eldegi júrttyng birazy jaqsy tanidy. Jazushy, jurnalist bolghan adam. Ákem tiri bolsa meni úrmaq týgili, janyma bir adam jolatpas edi ghoy degen oimen azapqa toly kýnderdi ótkizip jattym...

Sóitip, men bir apta boyy qamauda otyrdym. Kýndelikti bir tilim qara nan, azdap su berip túrdy. Ertengilik tekseris barysynda úryp-soghyp, shashymnan tartyp, júlqylap, qoldarynan kelgen barlyq qorlyqty kórsetti. Bir aptadan keyin bizding bәrimizdi tergeu izolyatoryna alyp keldi. Sol jerde qaytadan jinalys boldy. Jinalysta biz túrghan jatahananyng vahtershysy Ghaliya apaydy segiz jylgha sottau turaly sot ýkimi oqydy. Biraq búl segiz jyldyq Ghaliya apaygha jenil berilgeni eskertildi. Sebebi, Ghaliya apayymyzdyng mýgedek qyzy bar ekenin eskerilgen. O, súmdyq-ay, ne degen jauyzdyq, ne degen qatygezdik, qazir sony oilasam sol adamdardy qara jer qalay kóterip jýr eken dep tang qalamyn. Ghaliya apay bolsa sottalyp kete bardy. Al, jatahananyng starostasy Slamjan aghaydy jastardy úiymdastyrushy dep jala jauyp, on eki jylgha bas bostandyghynan aiyrdy.

Sóitip, kezek maghan keldi. Meni kәmelettik jasqa tolmaghandyqtan, jasóspirimderdi tәrbiyeleu koloniyasyna jiberuge, oqudan shygharugha úsynys berdi. Komsomol qatarynan birden shygharyp tastady. Bireu ýstimnen múzday su qúiyp jibergendey boldy. Býkil ómirim kóz aldymnan tizbektelip ótip jatqanday. Mening bar jazyghym elding erteni ýshin uayym etip alangha ayaq basqanym ba, qazaq últynyng mýddesi ýshin aitqan jauap sózim ýshin be?!

Adamnyng taghdyry sheshiler tústa kuratorym orys últynan Nina Nikolovna kómekke keldi. Ol mening oqudan shyqpauyma jәne balalardy týzetu koloniyasyna jiberilmeuime tabandy qarsylyq bildirip, sonyna deyin kýresti. Aqyr ayaghynda óz qarauyna alatynyn aityp keshirim hat jazyp, búl qaterden alyp qaldy.

Ol kisi meni óte ayaushy edi. Qolynan kelgen kómegin esh ayanyp qalghan joq. Birinshiden әkem joq, anam alysta, jaghdayym asa jaqsy emes, esh adamgha ziyanym joq, ústazdarymnyng aitqanyn eki etpeymin, naghyz patriot boldym.

86 jyldaghy zúlmat kezderdi oilasam birinshi bolyp Nina Nikolovnany eske alamyn. Birinshi Tәnirge, sosyn osy adamgha shәkirttik alghysym sheksiz. Sol jyldary kóp jastar oqudan shyqty. Yzgharly jeltoqsanda talaydyng taghdyry  qasiretpen ótti. Mening de densaulyghym syr berdi. Aqyryndap jýrip oquymdy ayaqtadym. Ókinishtisi, Slamjan aghay týrmeden oralmady...

El preziydenti N.Á.Nazarbaevtyng «Jappay sayasy qughyn-sýrgin qúrbandaryn aqtau turaly zany» negizinde, bes jyldan keyin Ghaliya apay aqtaldy. Keyingi jyldary jeltoqsan oqighasynyng qúrbany ekenim eskerilip, men de aqtaldym, biraq, jýrekke týsken syzattan әli kýnge deyin aryla almay kelemin...

Jalpy jeltoqsan kóterilisi bizding elge Tәuelsizdikti jaqyndatty. Qazir elimiz qoy ýstinde boztorghay júmyrtqalaghan zamanda ómir sýrip jatyr. Tәuelsizdik kez kelgen memleketting jete bermeytin jetistigi. Búl «myng ólip, myng tirilgen» qazaq degen dana halyqtyng san ghasyrlyq ansaghan armany edi. Sol bagha jetpes tәuelsizdikti jaqyndatqan «Jeltoqsan kóterilisine» qatysqan jastardyng isterin ghana emes, ózderin qoldap, keyingi úrpaqqa ýlgi etudi nasihattau qajet dep esepteymin. Jeltoqsandyqtar namysty jibermey, Qazaq elining bolashaq mýddesi ýshin qyzyl imperiyanyn, yaghny Gorbachevtyn  sayasy qúrbany boldy. Men elimning bolashaghynyng jarqyn, túghyrymyzdyng biyik bolatynyna senemin. Tәuelsiz elimning Kók tuy kókte sharyqtay bersin, yntymaq pen tatulyq, tynyshtyq barsha halqyma tileymin.

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