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San ghasyrlar boyy myna sayyn dalamyzda nebir shayqas, jan alysyp jan berisken aiqas, alasapyrandar ótken. Sonyng bәri keler úrpaq, bolashaqtyng qamy, ar namystyng aldyndaghy azamattyq paryzdan shyqqan jankeshtilik, tektilikten tughan tegeurindilik. Sol biyik payym-parasatty kisilik pen narkeskendey órminezdi jauyngerlikting arqasynda, batyr babalarymyzdyng qiyn-qystau, tar soqpaqta synbaghan sharbolattay qaysar qaytpas erminezdiligining arqasynda, úlan-ghayyr, kiyeli jerimiz әupirimdep býgingi úrpaghyna búiyryp, Tәuelsizdik atty tendikke jettik. Osy “myng ólip, myng tirilgen” qazaqtyng basynan keshken qandy zobalanynyng biri, jiyrmasynshy ghasyrdyng 1986-jylghy Jeltoqsan últ-azattyq kóretilisi bolatyn.
Búl bodandyqtyng qamytyn kýshtep kiydirgen, otarlau sayasatyna qarsy shyqqan, ar-namysty qazaq jastarynyng azattyq jolyndaghy janqiyarlyghy, últtyq ruhty tu etip kótergen qaysar jýrekterining jalyny men júdyryqtay júmylghan júlqynysy edi. Qazaq últynyng tәuelsiz tendigin talap etip, otarlaushy orys imperiyasynyng shekten shyqqan astamshyldyq shovinistik pighylyna kókjal minez kórsetip, arystanday aibatpen, qaymyqpastan qarsy shyqty. Múzday qarulanghan meyirim-janashyrlyqtan júrday, úrda-jyq jendetterining qatygezdigi, qazaqtyng azattyqqa úmtylghan órminezdi úl-qyzdarynyng biyik ruhtaryn syndyryp, jasyta almady. Úryp-soghyp, qan-josa ghyp azaptaghandary etten ótip, sýiekke jetken qorlyqtary jýrekterde saqtauly, múraghattarda qattauly.
Búl kýres bodandyq búghauyn ýzdi. Tendik pen azattyqty talap etken biyik maqsat jolyndaghy shayqasta nebir bozdaqtardyng qany suday shashylyp, talay taghdyrlardyng tas talqany shyqty. Jas jauqazynday qaryndastarymyzdyng ghúmyry gýldey soldy, qyrshyndarynan qiyldy. Abaqtynyng azabyn arqalap, tar qapasta talay tarlandarymyz qorlyqty bastarynan ótkizdi. Sol arda minez, tegeurindi tektilerding tógilgen qany, tartqan azabynyng tóleui bop, Alla taghalamyz qazaq últyna Tәuelsiz El boludy búiyrtty.
Bodandyq atty búghaudan, óz eli, óz jerinde jýrip, “ýshinshi sortty” kýn keshuden qútyldyq. Búl jeltoqsan qaharmandarynyng jenisi, qaysarlyq pen qayrattylyqtyng jemisi!
Shyn azamattyq pen erlik eskerusiz, eleusiz qaldy demeymiz. Eling ýshin etken enbeging men halqynnyng namysynyng jolynda pida bolghan jannyng armany bar ma? Qayrat pen Erbol, Sabira men Lәzzattardyng qyrshynynan qiylyp, qúrban boluymen kelgen myna býgingi Tәuelsizdikting baghasyn bar qazaqtyng balasy baghalary haq! Sol yzgharly jeltoqsanda yqpaghan, yntymaghymen qúrsanghan jaudy yqtyrghan, nayzaghay namysty jastardyng aldy alpystan asyp, jetpiske jetti. Keyingileri qyryqtyng qyrqasyna shyghyp, el aghasy-eludi enserude. Azamattyq pen erlikti ardaqtap, qúrmet tútudy eshqashan shetke qaldyryp kórmegen halqymyz, Jeltoqsan ardagerlerine de, erekshe iltipatpen qarap, baghalaydy, tórden oryn beredi. Óskeleng úrpaq jastarymyz da ótken tarihymyzdyng tiri kuәlerinen ýlgi alyp, últymyzdyng namysy jolynda ajalgha tura baryp, tajaldan taysalmaghan, ata-әje, agha-apalarynan ýlgi alugha úmtylady. Últtyq patriotizmning býgingi kóshbasynda jýrgenderding kóbi-keshegi jeltoqsandyqtar ekeni aqiqat. Ony kýni keshe ghana últtyq qasiretimizge ainalugha az qalghan “jerdi shet eldikterge satu jәne jalgha beru” atty býgingi biylikting jobasyna óre týregelip, qarsy túrghan qarapayym halyqtyng arasynda jeltoqsandyq jaujýrekterding kóptep jýrui osy sózimizding aighaghy emes pe?
“Elim, jerim, tilim, qazaghym”- degende óz qonynan et kesip berer, tәuekelden tartynbas tarlanbozdardyng irilik pen kisilik kórseter jerde tartynghan kezderi joq. Alayda osynday tektilikti teksizdikting tasasynda qaldyryp, “kýrishting arqasynda su ishetin kýrmekter” kóbeyip, “jeltoqsandyq” degen kiyeli atty kirletude. “Bir qaryn maydy bir qúmalaq shiriter” degendey, biren-sarang emes, jeltoqsandyqtargha ýsh qaynasa sorpasy qosylmaytyn, “Arsyz bolmay ataq joq, aldamshy bolmay baq qonbas” (Abay) dep úly danyshpan әjuә etken, arzan ataq pen jenil qúrmetke kenelushiler qatary kýnnen kýnge kóbende. Búnday jalghan jeltoqsanshylar sol yzgharly kýnge “ýsh qaynasa sorpasy qosylmasa da”, arzan abroy , ataq qúmarlar “jau qashty zamanynyng batyrlary”. Búl endi kórer kózge, aitar auyzgha ynghaysyz, óte úyat, ar-imannan bezinuding belgisi demeske sharang joq.
Búnday jalghan jeltoqsandyqtardyng bar bileri men bitireri qara bastyng qamyn kýittep, qolynda biyligi barlargha jalbaqtap, jaqsy atty bolyp kórinu, syi-siyapat jasaghansyp “qoldaryna su qúi”... Qarap túryp, qylyqtarynan jiyrenesin! Arzan ataq, jalghan jolmen beysharasyp jýrip jetken “abyroydy” qay jyrtyghyna jamau qylghysy kep jýr eken dep! Tómen sana-arsyzdyqtan ayyl jighyzbaytyn bolghany ghoy!
Naghyz jeltoqsandyqtar, últ patriottary búnday arzan tirlikpen biyik azamattyq abroyyn eshqashan ayaq asty etip, arzandamaydy. Búnday soraqy sorlylyqqa úyatsyzdar, jaghympaz-jalbaqaylar, ar-ojdannyn (eger ondayy bolsa) bir ayaq asqa, oilanbastan ayyrbastaugha arlanbaytyn arsyz jolbiykeler ghana bara alady. Biyik ruhty azamattyqty, oiynshyqqa ailandyryp, órlikpen erlik kórsetken erminezdilikting atyn jamylyp, saudagha salu qysqasy “perishtening jelegin jamylghan saytan sayqymazaqtyq” jaylauda. Dәl osy “saytandyq” ózim túratyn Almaty qalasy, Nauryzbay audanynyng jeltoqsanshylary arasynda “ósip órken jangda”!
Al býgingi biylikke ózindik oi-pikir bar, aitaryn jalbaqtamay qabyrghasyn qaqyrata aytatyn aqiqatshy tura minezdi túighyndar emes, aytqangha jýretin, aitaqqa ýretin, qoljaulyq qolbalalar tiyimdirek. Arbakeshke “asau minez terte teber” jýirikten góri, basyn jerden almas, túghyr, mәstekter únamay ma! Óitkeni, onday qolbala patriotsymaqtar biylikting ynghayyna jyghylyp, yghyna jýgirip, arnau arnap, alghys hat joldaudan, “jayau jarys” úiymdasytyryp “úshyp-qonady”. Al biyshikeshterge de keregi osy “keremet” “patriot” degen osynday boluy kerek dep jaramsaqtardy jarylqap, jaghday jasaghansyp, arqalarynan qaghyp, qúlaqtarynan qasyp qoyady. Arzan ataq, qúr maqtaugha jany ghúmar jalbaqpaylargha búdan artyq ne kerek? Aq qar, kók múzda otarlaushy imperiyanyng janalghysh jendetterining súsynan seskenbegen, tajalynan taysalmaghan tarlanbozdardyng arasyna kirip alyp, ishten iritip, alauyzdyq tudyrushylar da osynau kýiki tirlik, kýibenbay, qortyq sanaly “bayghústardyn” bar bitirer qareketi! Búnday tiptegiler erlik, órlik azamattyq arda minezge, ózinen oy-sanasy biyikterge óshtesumen ómirin ótkizedi.
"Elimizdi, jerimizdi shet eldikterden qorghayyq, satqyzbayyq, jalgha da bergizbeyik" dep irgemizdegi Qytay imperiyasynda túryp jatqan qandastarymyzdy qan qaqsatyp, qysym-qiyanat, genosid kórsetuine qarsy túrugha shaqyrghanda, Nauryzbay audandyq “jeltoqsan aqiqaty úiym jetekshisi” atanghan Eleusizov Maqsút Shahanovich degen "jeltoqsanshymyz" “biz rúqsat etilmegen mitingige bara almaymyz” dep inge tyghylghan qoyanday bolghany bar. Al osy “batyrymyz”- tayauda Almaty qalalyq mәslihatynyng sheshimimen beriluge tiyesili qalalyq qoghamdyq kólikterde tegin jýru biyleti- “Onaydy" tezirek bermedinder” - dep, shu kóterip, shat-shalekeyi shyghyp, "Onay" ýshin oibay salghan kórinedi. Mine “qazan búzar, ýy tentekterdin” tirlikterining siqy!
Al onyng “jogharydaghy tóraghasy” biylikting qalauyna jaqqan Qúrymbaev Bolat, “mening rúqsatymsyz sheruge barghandar úiymnan quylyp, qara esekke teris mingiziledi” degen pәrmen bergen kórinedi. “Aqymaqtyng qolyna berilgen biylik, adamzattyng qas jauy” degen danyshpannyng sózine qalay qúldyq úrmasqa! Aytqapshy, osy Qúrymbaev Bolatty tanyp-biletinder, búl adamnyng jeltoqsangha ýsh qaynasa da sorpasy qosylmaydy, biylikting jeltoqsanshylardy “uystan shygharmau ýshin” jiberilgen agenti deydi. Dese degendey, jan-jaghyna jalbaqpaylar men jalghan jeltoqsanshylardan top qúryp, adal azamattargha qarsy “shep” ashyp, ýy ishinen ýy tikken biriktirushi emes, iritushi bireu ekenine kuәmiz!
Al osy toppen ymyralasyp, ym-jymdasqan “qújattardy qoldan jasaudyng maytalmany” - Qúspekov Beysenbay Sayfollaúly degen azamat bar. Aytqan aqy-púlyn alaqanyna salsang boldy, “jeltoqsangha qatysyp zardap shegushi, qughyn-sýrgin kórgen” degen arnayy qújatty qoldaryna ústatady. Búl “iygilikten” kende qalmaghandardyng kóbi, osy úiymdarda keude qaghyp, jalghan jeltoqsanshy kuәligimen jalghandy jalpaghynan basuda. Beysenbay Qúspekovtyng resmy qújattardy qoldan jasap, jalghan jeltoqsandyqtardyng sanyn arttyrghany sonshalyq, jasandy jolmen tiyisti jenildikterdi paydalanyp jýrgenderdi anyqtaudy arnauly organdardyng qúzyryna qúlaq qaghys ettik. Osynday jalghan jeltoqsanshy kuәligin alyp, aqtalyp, qughyn-sýrgin qúrbany atanghan bir әuletting ýmbetteri – Eleusizov Maqsút Shahanovich (1958j.t), Eleusizova Aygýl Shahanovna (1960j.t), Mukataeva Lazzat Shahanovna (1968j.t). Búl bir janúyadan taraytyn “ýshtiktin”, jeltoqsan kóterilisine qatysqanyna kýmәn keltirushiler kóp.
Al, óz basym óte jaqsy tanityn, kommunisttik qyzyl imperiya kezinde, Almaty irgesindegi «Kamenka» (qazirgi Tausamaly yqsham audany) kolhozynda bas agronom bolyp qyzmet atqarghan, qyp-qyzyl kommunist- Tәjibaev Júmabay da keyingi jyldary (zeynetkerlikke shyqqan son) jeltoqsan kezinde “qughyn-sýrgin kórgen, zardap shegushi” bop, ardager atanypty. Búl aghamyzdiki endi, ótirikting óte anayy, arsyz týrine jatqyzugha bolady. Qyzyl kommunistik iydeyasyna ant bergen imperiyanyng “has jauyngeri” Júmabaydyn, jeltoqsangha qatysugha, barugha jýregi de daualamaghany aqiqat. Onday “kózsiz erlikke” barghan Júmekenning kózine kók shybyn ýimeletip, it jekkenge aydalary anyq edi. “Jauqashty zamanynyn” taghy bir “batyry” - Júmabay Tәjibaev aghamyz. “Úyalmaghan búiyrmaghannan nesibe alady” deydi búndaydy qazaq! Keyin bәri anyqtalghanday, sol kezde alandaghy jastar arasynda KGB-nyng (memlekettik qauipsizdik komiytetinin) shtattaghy jәne shtattan tys tynshy-jansyzdary kóptep jýripti. Olargha berilgen arnayy tapsyrma - qyzu qandy, albyrt jastardy, týrli qiytúrqy-arandatu arqyly, tәrtipsizdikter men búzaqylyqtargha ýgittep, qylmysqa iytermeleu sekildi jymysqylyqtarmen ainalysu. Bir sózben aitqanda, arandatushy - provokatorlar! Mýmkin, Tәjibaev Júmabay osynday “memlekettik tapsyrmamen” qatysuy bek mýmkin! Al “aqtaluyna”, sol bayaghy Beysenbaydyng “qol sharapaty” tiygen kórinedi.
Ótirikting – qadamy qysqa, kóp úzamay arty ashylady. Aqiqat pen Shyndyq týbinde jeniske jetedi. Óitkeni, onyng arqa sýieri - bir Alla Taghala! Jik-jikke, top-topqa bólinuge bastaytyn bәtuasyz, beysharauy pendelikten aspaytyn, kýiki minez, kýibeng tirlikten basqagha qauqarsyz, bar bitireri yrdu-dyrdu, iship-jeuding tóniregindegiler “jeltoqsanshy” degen ardaqty atqa kir keltirude. Ásirese keyingi kezderi jauynnan keyingi, kerenqúlaqtay qaptauda. Naghyz jeltoqsandyq qaharman-ardagerler, elding ertenine, úrpaqtyng keleshegine alandaydy. Arzangha aldanbaydy, mayda-shýideni maldanbaydy. Qazaqtyng qamy, últymyzdyng mýdde-múnyna qabyrghalary qayysyp, jer men tildi, últtyq qúndylyqtardy qorghau jolynda jan beruge әzir naghyz kókjaldar búlar! Ústanghan sertteri - “malym - janymnyng sadaghasy, janym - arymnyng sadaghasy”. Namysty erding - anty osy! Al, namys ólgen jerde, qasiyet túraqtamaydy.
Auyrlau bolsa da aqiqatyn aittyq. Tura sóilep, aqiqatyn aytsan, aghayyngha jaqpaysyn “búra” sóilep, “búghyp” jýrseng ghana, senen jaqsy adam joq. Býgingi jebir biylikting jeteginde ketpey, “qisayghanyn týzeuge, qynyrayghanyn kýzeuge” at salysyp, opponenttik pikirde jýrgenderge jauyghyp, biyliktegi biyshikeshterding qasy-qabaghymen qimyldaugha “qúshtarlyq” abroy bermeydi. Qúbylmaly dýniyening qúly bolyp, qu qúlqynyn ghana oilau-naghyz moralidyq azghyndau, pendauy mesheldik, adamnan góri hayuangha jaqynyraq tirlik sanalady. Búl jazghandarymyzdyng shyndyq pen aqiqattan alshaq emes ekeni Allagha ayan. Niyetimizde kórealmaushylyq ta, qyzghanysh ta joq, tek jamandyq pen ekijýzdilik atty kesel-kesapatqa tosqauyl qoiy ghana bolghanyn eskertemiz!
Saylau Lepesov, jeltoqsanshy
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