ÁLIBI! Aynalayyn, Áliby balam, basyna auyr is týsip jatqan kezde óz ainalamda sening taghdyryna beytarap qaraghan adam kórmedim. Mening ainalam dep otyrghanym – elimizding óner kenistigine, teatr әlemine, shygharmashylyq bilim beru salasyna  qatysy bar ústazdar, sahna men kino sheberleri. Agha buyn, orta buyn, kishi buyn – Aqtóbede sottalyp jatqan qarshaday ózindi oilap qamyghuda. Keshe tanda Sen týsime kirdin. Erkindikke shyqqan sәtine arnalghan alty Alash bas qosqan mereke bolyp jatyr eken. Oraza aiy bastalghan alghashqy kýnnen-aq dúghamdasyn, tilegimdesin. Týsimdi jaqsylyqqa jorydym.

Shynyn aitqanda, sening tughan-tuysqandaryndy bylay qoyghanda, talantyng men ónerine, adamy bolmysyna tәnti ústazdaryng qatty qapalanyp otyrmyz. Sening teatr sahnalarynda, uniyversiytet zaldarynda ótken spektaklderdegi somdaghan beynelerindi kórip tәnti boldyq. Qonyr dauysynmen jas Shәmshini kóz aldymyzgha әkeldin. Ómirge inkәr, jan-jaghyna shuaghyn shashqan meyirimdi shәkirt retinde kóptegen qoghamdyq-mәdeny is-sharanyng bel ortasynda jýrdin.

Elge qyzmet etuding qanday ekenin jastyq jalyngha toly darynynmen EKSPO halyqaralyq kórmesindegi mәdeny jobalargha belsene qatysyp, kórsete bildin. «Qazaqtyng Qyzjibegi» atanghan Meruert Ótekeshovanyng ruhany balasyna, ónerdegi úlyna ainaldyn. 2019 jyldyng mausym aiynyng ayaghynda Atyraudaghy Mahambet atyndaghy teatrdyng sahnasynda Sening somdaghan beyneng - kórermenge qol soqtyryp, tanday qaqtyrdy. Óner sapary ayaqtalyp, bәrimiz úshaqpen Núr-Súltan qalasyna oraldyq. Sabaqqa degen alghyrlyghyndy bylay qoyghanda, top starostasy retinde Sening birge oqityn dostaryna degen meyirim men janashyrlyq sezimine, úiymdastyrushylyq qabiletine sessiya kezderinde, ýlken sharalar kezinde talay kuә boldyq.

Ómiri endi bastalghan, qylmysy tolyghymen dәleldenbegen, daryny janartauday jarqyldaghan jas jigitti 10 jylgha sottau – әdiletsizdik! Álibiyding bar kinәsi – jastyghy shyghar, teatr әlemindegi temirdey tәrtipti 1-2 oqushydan talap etkendigi. Áriyne, Sening ornynda tәjiriybesi bar basqa bireu bolghanda, sol balalardy «diskotekagha» jiberip, sharshap biylegenshe salqynqandylyq tanytyp, samarqau túra berer edi. Al, Sen – sol kishkentay balalardy tәrtipke shaqyrghyng keldi, tәrbiyeleging keldi. Qazirgi qoghamdaghy shybyq tiymey shynq eter keybir «balalardyn» kliptik oilau sanasynda ata-anasyna aityp kek alu, ósh alu ýrdisi beleng alyp bara jatyr. Juyrda ghana Belorusi Preziydenti G.Lukashenko – mektepte syrtynan jasyryn viydeogha týsirip, balalargha dauys kóterip, olardyng mazaghyna, ata-analarymen qoghamdyq úiymdardyng qudalauyna úshyraghan ÚSTAZDY qorghap qalghan isi – belorustyq ata-analargha sabaq boldy. Bala qúqyghy qorghaluy tiyis. Balanyng taghdyry – eng basty qúndylyq. Úldar tәrbiyelep, nemereler ósirip otyrghan Áke, Ata retinde – bala bәrimizding bauyr-etimiz. Balalar - elding erteni. Biraq bala psihologiyasynyng jeteginde ketpey, el bolyp, qogham bolyp osy Áliby Ótepbergenning isine – aralasyp, jas daryndy qorghap qaluymyz kerek dep esepteymin. Búl qazirgi әlemdi alandatqan ahual kezindegi adam taghdyrynna bey-jay qaray almaytyn bizding kisilik bet-perdemizdi ashyp berui tiyis. Áliby taghdyry – últqa sabaq boluy kerek. Sondyqtan búl iske, biz ústazdary ghana emes, elimizge tanymal psihologiya nemese pedagogika ghylymdarynyng doktorlaryn qatystyra otyryp, halyqaralyq qúqyq negizinen tәjiriyebesi mol zangerler men qogham qayratkerlerining basyn qosyp – múqiyat taldauymyz kerek. Eshqanday jabyq sot ótpeui tiyis!

Men de Áliby taghdyryna bey-jay qaray almaymyn. Jas taghdyr iyesining óspey jatyp, óshuine bar bolmysymmen qarsymyn!  Álemning óner kenistigin tanyghan jan retinde aitarym; Áliby Ótepbergen - bolashaq qazaq ónerining Asanәlisi, Ánuary, Qúmany, Túnghyshbayy, Doshany! Álibiyding boyynda osy sanlaq aghalary sekildi akterlik, әnshilik, sazgerlik qabiletter ýilesim tauyp, bir ózi bir kisilik teatrgha ainala alatyn has talanttyng qasiyetterine iye! Al ónerinen bólek, otbasy men ústazdarynan alghan tәrbiyesi men adamy qasiyetteri mol jas.

Keshe ghana baqilyq dýniyedegi Anasyna arnaghan zaryn estip, say-sýiegim syrqyrady. Esterinizde bolar... Mening úmytqanym joq. Osydan 3 jyl búryn elimizding jas sportshysy jarystan oralyp kele jatyp, halyqaralyq úshaq ishinde janynda otyrghan jolaushy-qyzdyng tizesine qoly týsip, úiqysyrap basy onyng iyghyna sýiegeni ýshin naqaqtan-naqaq Londonda taghdyry sotqa týskeni. Jalaqor shet eldik jolaushy qyz - qazaqtyng oghylanyna: «Maghan zorlau әreketin jasady», - dep sotqa berip, aeroportta jas jigitti tútqyngha alady. Osyny kózimen kórgen kórshi oryndyqta otyrghan aghylshyn otbasy arashagha týsti. Býkil sot otyrysyna qatysyp, qorghaugha baryn saldy. Sonda, qazaqtyng jas balasyn aghylshyndar ózderi qorghap, onyng jymysqy әreketi bolmaghanyn aityp aqtap alghan bolatyn. Alty aigha sozylghan sotta, aidaladaghy aghylshyn soty - qazaqtyng jas órenin aqtap, eline oraluyna dәneker boldy.

Qazir de kózimiz kórip, býkil el kuә bolyp otyrmyz: El Preziydenti Q.Toqaev – Qytay týrmesinde alty jyl erkindikti ansaghan Aqjarqyn Túrlybaydyng elge orlauyna dәneker bolyp jatyr. Adam balasyn istemegen isi ýshin jauapqa tartu – órkeniyettilikting belgisi emes! Eshqanday da adamdyq moralgha syimaydy!  Áliby – bolashaq qazaq ónerining qayratkeri! Álibiydi tolyghymen aqtaudy súraymyn!

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