Bolat Jýnisbekov,
Qazaqstan Jurnalister odaghy syilyghynyng laureaty

Olardyng talantty әri tәuelsiz túlghalary  oygha - óris, qiyalgha - qanat
MEN... «Men, men edim, men edim...» Mahambet, Abay, Shәkәrim, Múhtar Áuezov, Maghjan, Jýsipbek, Qasym, Júban, Qanysh... Ónerge olar jan-tәnimen berilip, osy jolda «janpida» edi. Ózderining tuma talanttary arqyly tughan halqynyng mәrtebesin aspandatty. Búl - ilude bireuding ghana mandayyna jazylghan taghdyr. Qazaqta, shýkir, onday birtuar túlghalar barshylyq. Atalghan qayratkerler sapy zamanalar kóshinde shoqtyqtana týsumen keledi... Ánuar, Oljas, Múqaghali, Maghauiyn, Shahanov... Búl - alty Alashtyng abyroyyn óz MENimen asqaqtatqan marqasqalardyng bir shoghyry ghana.
MEN de, әlbette, pende bap tileydi. Ol eger qoghamda layyqty baghasyn ala almasa, ózining tua bitti tabighatyn saqtap qaluy qiyn-aq. Talantyng otbasyna talghajaugha tatymasa, yaky jabygha jabylghan qúrmet pen ataqtan júrday qalsan, amal ne! Búl - túlpargha túsau, súnqargha syngha ainalady. Biraq sol pendeshilik pen kýndelikti kýibennen biyik túrghan túghyrly túlghalar bәribir әldeqayda kóp. Nebir qystalang shaqta da ózining MENinen ainymay ótetin minezdi azamattar qanshama! Elimning «MEN» degen eki Múhtarynyng - Maghauin men Shahanovtyng tap sonday túlpar túlghalar ekeni Alash moyyndaghan aqiqat. Olardyng ónegesi oigha - óris, qiyalgha - qanat eken.

ADAMDYQ MÁNI

Bolat Jýnisbekov,
Qazaqstan Jurnalister odaghy syilyghynyng laureaty

Olardyng talantty әri tәuelsiz túlghalary  oygha - óris, qiyalgha - qanat
MEN... «Men, men edim, men edim...» Mahambet, Abay, Shәkәrim, Múhtar Áuezov, Maghjan, Jýsipbek, Qasym, Júban, Qanysh... Ónerge olar jan-tәnimen berilip, osy jolda «janpida» edi. Ózderining tuma talanttary arqyly tughan halqynyng mәrtebesin aspandatty. Búl - ilude bireuding ghana mandayyna jazylghan taghdyr. Qazaqta, shýkir, onday birtuar túlghalar barshylyq. Atalghan qayratkerler sapy zamanalar kóshinde shoqtyqtana týsumen keledi... Ánuar, Oljas, Múqaghali, Maghauiyn, Shahanov... Búl - alty Alashtyng abyroyyn óz MENimen asqaqtatqan marqasqalardyng bir shoghyry ghana.
MEN de, әlbette, pende bap tileydi. Ol eger qoghamda layyqty baghasyn ala almasa, ózining tua bitti tabighatyn saqtap qaluy qiyn-aq. Talantyng otbasyna talghajaugha tatymasa, yaky jabygha jabylghan qúrmet pen ataqtan júrday qalsan, amal ne! Búl - túlpargha túsau, súnqargha syngha ainalady. Biraq sol pendeshilik pen kýndelikti kýibennen biyik túrghan túghyrly túlghalar bәribir әldeqayda kóp. Nebir qystalang shaqta da ózining MENinen ainymay ótetin minezdi azamattar qanshama! Elimning «MEN» degen eki Múhtarynyng - Maghauin men Shahanovtyng tap sonday túlpar túlghalar ekeni Alash moyyndaghan aqiqat. Olardyng ónegesi oigha - óris, qiyalgha - qanat eken.

ADAMDYQ MÁNI

MEN - jeke jәne derbes qana emes, erkin túlgha. Ol óz sózine sergek, ainalasyna adal, qolyndaghy sharuasyn shyr dóngeletip otyrghan azamat. Ózindik kózqarasy men oi-pikiri bar jәne ózining sózi men isine «MEN» dep, qasqaya qarap túryp, jauap bere alady. Múnsyz Siz kóp pendening biri ghana bolyp qalasyz. Kópshilikting basyndaghy jay - osy. Al Maghauin men Shahanovtyng «MENi» últ maqtanyshy jәne úrpaqqa úlaghat.
MENning alayda qogham qayratkeri, tanymal túlgha, qanatty óner júldyzy nemese belgili basshy, yaky erekshe daryn, bap pen baq iyesi boluy - shart emes. Ol eng bastysy - tәuelsiz, parasatty, isker azamat. Tipti qaytalanbas daryn iyelerining ózderining de MENin saqtap qalu ýnemi qoldarynan kele bermeydi. Kenes túsyndaghy bir ghana 37-ning lany jetip jatyr.
MEN, olay bolsa, eng әueli, Adamdyq mәni. Ózindik kózqarasy men pikiri joq jannyng «MEN» ýsh úiyqtasa da týsine kirmeydi. Ol - shoshymaly, әiteuir kópshilikting kólenkesinde, kóshten qalmay, elding etegine erip, ómir aghysyna ileskenine mәz. Ondaylar - asa qauipti, tynysh jýrmeydi, qúr bosqa qopandaghysh keledi. Syrttaryn kýjireytip, dәmeleri zor. Shama-sharyqtaryna qaramay, bilek sybana bәsekege týsedi. Aylary onynan tuyp, joldarynyng bolatyn kezderi de az emes. Ayanbaydy, aramter bolady. Amal ne, bizding kópshiligimiz ýshin, ómir sýru - kýres. Taghdyr mandayymyzgha jazghan bir sәttik qana Núr-sәule - Úly Tirlik mәnin tereng týisinip, zerdeley almaghan son, shara joq. Al Áuezov әlemine samghaghan eki Múhtardyng taghdyrlary tughan elining arman-maqsatymen egiz. Olar tabighy daryndaryn ainalayyn Alashyna arnau arqyly Alla Taghalanyng ózderine degen asqan meyirimining tereng múratyn pash etude.
MENning jetegindegiler bolsa, osynau jaryq dýniyege, tipti ne ýshin kelgenimizdi de úghynbay, keudeden «kókala ýirek qosh» dep úshqanda baryp, jalghandy qimay jantalasamyz. Ol kezde biraq bәri de kesh. Sebebi «túrmys biylegen sana» qarynynyng toq, kóilegining kók bolghanyna razy. Búl jolda eshteneden de tayynbaydy. «Dauylpaz dauyl izdep, sharq úrady» delinbeushi me edi, әlgi bir býlikshil jyrda. Jýrekti tyndamay, basqa qúldyq úrghan son, yndynyng keuip, baqay esepting jetegine eresin. Qylyshyndy jalandata suyryp, kýreske izdenesin. Jan jaghynnan jau izdep, úrynargha qara tappay, maydan ashasyn. Tirlik mәnine boylamay, qúrdymgha ketesin. Joq, jaqsylyqqa úmtylu, әlbette - adamy qasiyet, biraq jantalasu - qasiret. Al zamanynan ozghan - Múhtarlardyng jeke bastaryn úmytyp, elding mún-múqtajyna arasha týsip, últ múrasynyng jyrshysy, namysynyng nayzaghayy bolghaly qashan!
MENin tap sol ekeuindey el múratyna arnau qolynan kelmegenimen, bylayghy júrttyng ony tym qúrysa joghaltyp almaghanyna ne jetsin. Qatelespeytin jan joq, alayda ózinning bolmys-bitimindi saqtap qalu ekitalay. Ol tipti ekining birining qoly jetpes shyn, oiy boylamas shynyrau. Sebebi ýngirdi panalaghan, kýshtini jaghalaghan, al odan assa, bir jannyng ekinshi bir jandy dertege jekken zamannyng «qamyty» әli kýnge moynymyzdan týspey-aq qoydy. Ensemizdi qansha tiktemek bolghanymyzben, enbektegen tórttaghan shaghymyzdan týregelip ketkenimiz shamaly. Sondyqtan Kóripkelder aqyrzamandy qansha jaqyndatqanymen, bizdinshe, adamzat ózining sәby shaghynan әli de bolsa asa qoyghan joq.
MEN tar qúrsaqtan shyr ete týsip, dýnie esigin ashqanda kenistikting sonshalyqty kendiginen, lap qoyghan telegey jaryq pen alapat auadan túnshygha jazdap, jany múrynynyng úshyna keledi. Shyryldap qoya beresin. Sәby shaghynda adamnyng hayuannyng kýshiginen esh aiyrmasy joq. Ekeui de nәreste, asa sýikimdi. Kele kele ghoy, janaghy býldirshin kýres izdep, birte-birte sýikimi qashady. Al әzirge sәby de, jolbarystyng kýshigi de sonshalyqty pәk, әri beykýnә. Aynalasyn ekeui de auyzdarymen tany bastaydy. Qolyna ilingendi, sosyn kózine týskendi qaqshyp týsuge qúmar-aq. Qu qarynnyng qamy da. Tanghalarlyq: kózderi bar - kóredi, qúlaqtary bar - estiydi, múryndary bar - sezedi. Alayda aqyl-esi auzy arqyly eseyip, sol «arany» arqyly tolysady. Esin bilge­ninshe, janaghy «qaryn instinktinen» aryl­ghansha, adamgha asqazan - bas. «Túrmystyng sana­ny biyleytin» kezi de osy, biraq qarynnyng «qú­ryghy» úzaryp, qúqayy sozylyp ketse, ne shara!
MEN... túrmys túqyrtqan zamanda el taghdyrymen egiz bolu - tek Múhtarlar siyaqty sanaulylardyng ghana peshenesine búiyrghan. Al kópshiligimiz ýshin janaghy qarynbay tirlik qayta topyraqqa ainalghanymyzsha iyghymyzdan týspey qoyady. Alla taghala sana bergen pendennen, endi MENin joghaltyp, menmensigen qúr miskin, quys keude ghana qalady. Tirlik shartynan adasqan son, óng men týsting arasynda kýn keshesin. Keybireuler, tipti pendeshiligi asqyna kele, qanaghatty әbden úmytyp, bardyng baghasyn biluden qalady. Adamgershilik, eng әueli tuystyq sezim de, qarynnyng tarazysyna týsedi. Auyz dәm sezuden qalyp, araq-sharaptyng asqa ainalatyny da - osy tús. Qaryn endi ar-úyatty da júta bastaydy. Bala-shagha qamyn betke ústap, qam­pighan ýstine qampiya beredi...
MEN - ekining birine búiyrmaghan taghdyr. Apyr-au, aqylsyz da emes siyaqty edi. Biraq pendenning basy mýlde joq bolsa she? Ondaylar da az emes. Janaghyday molaq moyyndardyng bassyzdyghyn talay kórgen song ghana búghan kózing jete týsedi. Biraq ózing sekildi pende bolghan son, pendeshiligi shyghar dep, qoldy bir silteysing de jýre beresin. Sóitse, basy joqtar shynynda da bolady eken. Kózderi men qúlaqtarynyng túghyry bar, tipti tili de - mayda: jón-joba siltep, әlekke týsedi. Biraq bas bolmaghan son, ne aitqanyn basqa týgili ózi de onsha úgha qoymaydy jәne onysy baqayynan kelmeydi: digirlep, dinkeletuge dókey. «Týk bilmeymin» dep, qúlaqtaryn qayshylap, jútqynshaghy ersili-qarsyly jýgirip, tipti kiyiz qazyqty jerge qaghudan dәmeli. Biraq «toqpaghy» kelispegen son, sharuanyng berekesin qashyrady. Kýreskerler de osyndaylar. Qaraptan-qarap maydan ashyp, manayynyng berekesin alady.
MEN qarabastyng qamy ýshin ózining eki iyghyn júlyp jemeydi, eshkimge qarsy kýrespeydi, qayta ózin-ózi qatal syngha qayrap salady. Jan men tәn tazalyghy ýshin, tughan eli ýshin, ana tilining taghdyry ýshin jýregi shanshidy. Ruhyn biyik ústaydy. Olar - Múhtarlar, әriyne, óte az. Ózgemiz pendemiz, óz MENimizdi bayaghyda-aq úmytqanbyz. Kýnkóristing qúldary. Biraq «ómir - kýres» degen qaghida bәribir kónilge qona qoymaydy. Ne ýshin jәne kimmen kýresuimiz kerek?!

EL TIREGI

MEN - elining qasiyetin jalpaq әlemge mәshhýr etedi. Otany ýshin otqa týsuge dayar, halqyna bilimimen de, bilegimen de qalqan. Elining jan-jaqty әleuetinen quat alady. Últtyq ruhtan aibyndana jәne aidyna týsedi. Demek, MEN - el tiregi. Búl - Múhtarlar men solar syndy biyik múrat iyeleri. Túlparlar men súnqarlar, adamnyng syrttandary olar. Al bizge jaudy syrttan emes, óz boyymyzdan tauyp, jene bilsek, ómir de solghúrlym núrlana týsedi eken. Onday adam ýshin jau joq, qyzghanshaqtar men kýnshilder ghana bar. Biraq ózining MENin joghaltpaghan jan sonyng bәrinen de biyik. Úly Abay búl turaly osydan bir ghasyr búryn ashyna jazdy. «Adam balasy jylap tuady, keyip óledi. Eki ortada búl dýniyening raqatynyng qayda ekenin bilmey, birin-biri andyp, birine-biri maqtanyp, esil ómirdi eskerusiz, bosqa, jaramsyz qylyqpen, qor ótkizedi de, tausylghan kýninde bir kýndik ómirdi bar malyna satyp alugha taba almaydy. Qulyq saumaq, kózin sýzip, tilenip adam saumaq - ónersiz itting isi. Áueli Qúdaygha syiynyp, ekinshi óz qayratyna sýienip enbegindi sau, enbek qylsan, qara jer de beredi, qúr tastamaydy» (5-sózden), - dep amanat etedi danyshpan. Ólmes óner iyesi Abay eshkimdi de kýreske shaqyrmaydy, ózi de oghan beyilsiz. Ózine-ózing sen de, qayratyna sýien - degen tereng úlaghat aitady.
MEN, demek, toptan oza shappasa da, jeke jәne erkin túlgha. Ol jan-jaghyn zerdelep, ishtey tolysady. Shataq izdep, basqamen beldesu arqyly emes, ózin-ózi mengeru, ózin-ózi ruhany bayytu arqyly eseyedi. Aynalasyn shuaghyna oraydy. Biraq elimning «MEN» degen Múhtarlary siyaqty tabighaty taza azamattardyng jýregining jyluyn kýndelikti kýibeng qúiryghyna matalghan pendeler anghara qoymaydy. Shirkin, sәl-pәl ghana taghat tauyp, jan-jaghyna zer salsa, bayqap, jany núrlana týser edi-au! Oghan, ókinishke qaray, uaqyt joq, qym-quyt tirshilik kóshinen qalmaugha tyrysyp, qamshyny tópeleysin-au, kelip.
MEN, ol bәsekege beyilsiz, bәigege týsip, bireuden ozyp, algha shyghudy maqsat etpeydi. Jantalaspaydy. Biraq bәribir «MEN» degen túlghalardyng samghauyna eshkim de, eshtene de bóget bola almaydy. Olar Kók jýzinde jýzip, tughan últyn úlyqtau jәne úlyqtatu ýshin jaratylghan. Ózge «bauyrymen jorghalaushylar» ýshin... bәseke ómir zany. Tabighy qúbylys. Tirshilik atauly da Kýnge talasa-tarmasa tynystaydy. Tipti ósimdikting biyigi gýldep, alasasy býrisip qalady. Sugha da tap solay, ósimdik atauly jarysa tamyr jayady. Pendeng de tirlikte jaqsylyqqa úmtylady. Túrmysta da, qyzmette de. Layyqty ómir sýr­ging keledi, biraq onyng ólshemi qaysy. Sosyn kórpene qaray kósiludi de esten shygharasyn. Alayda әdildikten attaugha qalaysha dәting barady?! Ókinishke qaray, belden basatyn beybastaqtar men beypilder kóbeydi. Qalasang da, qalamasang da janaghy Kýnge bas iygen haldesin. Áriyne, bәsekening de týr-týri bolady. Keybireuler ýnemi jarysyp, údayy jaghalasumen ótedi. Qyzmette, túrmysta, toy ótkizgende, tipti qaraly kýnderde de.
MEN, eger ol bәsekege sýlesoq bolsa, keybireuler oilaytynday, «onday tirlik zanyn týsinbeytin jannan ne qayyr?!» Jana­ghylardyng fәlsafasy boyynsha, bir-aq ret beriletin ómirdi «kýiip-janyp», mazdap ótker­megen son, onday tirlikte ne mәn bar? Key­bireuler ýshin solay. Olar turaly úly Abay:
«Ólse óler tabighat, adam ólmes,
Ol biraq qaytyp kelip, oinap-kýlmes.
«MENi» men «MENikinin» airylghanyn,
«Óldi» dep at qoyypty ónkey bilmes» - dep, tәn raqatynyng qúlyna ainalyp, jan ghúmyryn úmytqandargha oy salady.
MENge qarap túryp, oy talastyrmaq bolatyndar az emes. Halyq jazushylary eki Múhtardyng MEN degen túlghalaryn, tereng filosofiyasyn týsine almaytyndardyng peshenesine jazylghany - sol. Týsinbeytinderin qoyshy, ondaylargha asyl sózdi qor qylmay, qoldy bir-aq silteuge bolar edi. Biraq janaghy shirkinder tapyraqtap shauyp, qúr bosqa shandatqandarynyng dalbasa ekenin, ózderining sonshalyqty tayazdyghyn moyyndaghylyry kelmey, qaraptan qarap qorlanady, shabalana­dy. Endeshe Maghauinning «MENi» Qúday erekshe daryn berip, tamasha taghdyr jazghan erkin әri erik-jigeri kýshti túlghanyng ózin-ózi jete mengerip, ónerdi iygerui, yaghny osy joldaghy azapty sapary turaly ózekjardy syr. Áriyne, jangha batyryp, ashyraq aitatyn tústary da joq emes. Biraq búl - tereng syr men qanatty jyr eshkimge qarsy baghyttalmaghan. Onyng bar múraty óz MENin, yaghny ózining ómirlik ústanymyn jariya etu, adam ruhyn asqaqtatu.
MENning joly - asa auyr, azapty sapar. Shirkin, әrbir adamnyng ómiri Maghauinning MENindey talmas izdenis ýstinde ótse, arman ne?! Maghynaly ómir, ýzilmes ghúmyr. Áriyne, MEN dushar bolghan «dýmshe dýniye», apaq-sapaq zaman onyng janyn arpalysqa saldy. Otqa da, sugha da týsti. Janbady, batpady. Qayrala, qayrattana týsti. Elining tarihyn tauyp, jauhar ónerin jalpaq dýniyege mәshhýr etti. Sol arqyly qayran elining ensesin kóterdi, el egemendigine zor ýles qosty.
MEN - qazaq әdebiyetindegi kórnekti, túlpar túlghalardyng zaman jәne adam turaly tolghanysy. Alla taghala eki Múhtardyng «MEN»-ine erekshe taghdyr jazdy, birtuar daryn berdi. Jaratushynyng sol amanatyn olar aqtady da. Ayanbay enbek etip, últ tarihy men tabighatyn jarqyrata kórsetip qana qoymay, oghan jan-tәnimen qorghan boldy. Sonymen qatar búl «MENder» - adam qyzygharlyq, úrpaqqa ónege bolarlyq taghdyrlar. Tirlik mәnin kýresten izdemegen, óz MENin tabudy múrat etken úrpaq ýshin, әriyne.
«MEN» degen Abaydan son, qazaq әdebiyeti Múhtarlary men Maghjan, Iliyastary, Qasymy men Júbanynyn, Oljas pen Múqaghaliy siyaqty «MEN» degen tekti de tegeurindi úrpaqtyng qajyr-qayratynyng jemisi. Ol túlghalardyng MENi - búl jay ghana ot emes, shapaghy shartarapqa taraytyn, jol núsqaytyn núr-sәule. Birtuarlar eshqashan aidaugha jýrmedi, alghan betinen qaytpady. Ghylymda da, kórkem әdebiyette de, azamattyq sapta da.
MEN dar aldynda túrsa da óz missiyasyn taysalmay, abyroymen atqardy. Óz jolyn, óz izin qaldyrdy. Ol múnafikterding tóbesinde jay otynday oinap, jalpaq dýniyege búl el men jerding iyesi Qazaq ekenin úqtyrdy. Búl MEN-ning ghana qolynan keledi. Elge tirek bolatyn da MEN dep, qauip-qaterge qasqayyp, qarsy túra alatyn erkin әri erik-jigeri kýshti úrpaq. Demokratiya jeligimen kýpsingen, shala sauatty, ózderining jalang últshyldyqtyng úrda-jyq tasynan túrghyzghan tóbelerin Oljastay tau túlghalarmen jaghalastyrmaq bolyp әurege týsip jýrgender MENnen sadagha ketsin. MEN tughan últyn úlyqtay túryp ta, Adamgha, tipti kólenkesin de týsirmeytin túlghalar, qashanda zamanynan erterek tuyp, elin algha tartatyn kóshbasshylar.

TIRLIK ShARTY

MEN - eldikting tiregi ghana emes, ol sonymen qatar tirlik sharty. Adam ekensin, azat ruhtyng iyesi bolu abzal. Áytpese, qúr sýlde, quys keude bolasyng da qoyasyn. Teginde, Kompartiya «jana adam» tәrbiyeleymin dep, jantalasqanda sonday ruhy biyik adamdy menzese kerek. Biraq adamgha erkindik bermeyinshe, onday Túlghanyng qalyptasuy mýmkin emes edi. Sondyqtan ol zamanda «MEN» bolamyn deu - menmensu retinde qabyldandy. «Zamanymyzdyng aqyl-oyy men ar-ojdany - Kompartiyanyn» aldyna shyghu, júmsaqtap aitqanda, biylikti astamshylyq retinde tiksindirdi. Al Kenes halqynyng kóshbasshysy «MEN» dep, «menmensigenderdi» tez-aq tәubesine keltiretin. Kórnekti aqyn, JERdi MENge tabyndyrghan Oljas Sýleymenovting «AziYa-synyn» sabaghy jetip jatyr. Qayratker aqynnyng MENine búl onay soqqy bolmady.
MEN ýshin el taghdyry men til taghdyry egiz. Biraq osy ashy shyndyqty Gorbachevting qayta qúruynan keyin ghana ashyq aita aldyq. 85-tegi sәuirding samaly túrmys týgili sanadan óshuge ainalghan salt-dәstýrlerimizdi qayta janghyrtty. Qoghamda zor serpilis tudy. Erkindik qalamger qauym, onyng ishinde jurnalister ýshin shygharmashylyqqa tyng shabyt berdi. Jariyalylyq BAQ basyna qonghan baq edi. Tughan tilimizding taghdyryn oilap, qalam tartqanda ol shirkin qanattanyp qoya berer edi. Osydan 21 jyl búryn sol til janashyrlary sapynda «Oyanghan ólkem oilantqan, esineme endi, elim!» - dep, jar saldyq. Talay uaqyt namysy taptalyp, shermende kýy keshken aghayyn egemendikting jemisin qashan kórgenshe asyqty. Ony, tipti eshkimmen de bóliskimiz joq bolatyn. «Biyl Semeydegi nebәri eki mektepte, yaghny 16-shy men 5-shi qazaq mektepterinde birinshi klass búrynghyday bir-birden emes, bes-altydan ashylypty, - dep quanyshymyz erekshe. - Shirkin, halqymyzdyng Oljas Sýleymenov pen Múhtar Shahanov siyaqty qaharman úldary jalpy adam ataulygha bas úryp, jalpyadamzattyq apat - atom azaby men esirik ekologiyagha, tipti aral bolsa da, jandary shyrqyraghansha, eng aldymen Ana tilining joghyn joqtamas pa?!» - («Semey tany», 1989 j.) Asyqqan ekenbiz, әitpese, Múhandardyng da solay oilaytyndaryna kýmәn qaysy?! Shahanov «Namyssyz daryn satqyndyghy nemese birinshi men onynshy kezekti isti shatastyrghandar» dep, el namysy ýshin kýrespeytin mәngýrtterdi soyyp saldy: «...El basyna tóngen shaqta úly syn, Óz últymen birge almasy tynysyn, Ári onyng namysy ýshin, tili ýshin, Kýrespese onday daryn qúrysyn!».
«MEN» degen qazaghymyzdyng daraboz daryndary ana tilimizding aibaryna ainaldy. Tilderdi damytudyng 2020-shy jylgha deyingi baghdarlamasynyng jobasyn talqylaugha qatysqan belgili qogham qayratkerleri Amangeldi Aytaly, Myrzatay Joldasbekov, Ómirzaq Aytbaev, Uәlihan Qalijan men Myrzatay Serghaliyevtardy túsaukesu rәsimine qatysushylardyng tereng rizashylyqpen tyndaghandary esimizde. Al aqyndyq darynyn qayran qazaghyna basy býtin arnap, osy jolda ayanbay maydan ashqan Múhtar Shahanovtyng ýni asqaq estildi. Sonau Jeltoqsanda da aibarly aqynnyng alash namysyna birinshi bolyp ara týskeni barshagha mәlim. Etekten tartqan «ergejeyliler» qansha kókezulegenimen, «qazaqty qazaq dese, maqtanatyn da, alystan Alash dese, attanatyn da» osynday marqasqalar emes pe?! Sonau 1991-shi jyly Jeltoqsandyq ýsh jigitti aqtau jolynda «Halyqtyng qaysar ruhy» bolyp, jarqyldaghan taghy da osy Shahanov edi («Halyq kenesi» 1991j, 13 jeltoqsan.)
MEN - teginde, qazaqtyng ózining tabighaty bolatyn. Eshkimdi de, eshqashan da menmensitpeytin, erekshe taghdyrly «Men» degen qaharmandar tughan halqyn qay zamanda da tóbelerine kóterumen keledi. Olar «daryn elesin» qughan keybireuler siyaqty kóshede kósemsimey, eldikting sózin alqaly bas qosularda qasqaya túryp jetkizude. Shahanov atalmysh Baghdarlama jobasyn talqylaghan jiynda da óz oiyn ashylau bolsa da ashyq aitty. Ministr Múhtar Qúl-Múhammed aqyn aghany iltipatpen tynday otyryp ta dauylpaz namys seldete aqtarylghanda, onyng erneuinen asynqyraghan tústaryn inilik tereng izetpen arnasyna saldy.
MENnin, Ana tilimizding abyroyyn asqaqtatu ýshin elimizde atqarylghan sharuagha syn kózimen qarauy zandy. Ras, 1989-1990 oqu jylynda 910 myng oqushy qazaqsha bilim alsa, qazir olardyng sany 1,5 millionnan asypty. Halyqaralyq mektep olimpiadalarynda jenimpaz atanyp jýrgenderding de 64 payyzy sol qazaq mektepterining oqushylary. Respubliy­ka boyynsha isqaghazdaryn memlekettik tilge kóshiru isi qiyndyqpen bolsa da mejesine jaqyndap keledi. Tayauda tolyq basylyp shyghatyn jәne ana tilimizding 150 myng jauharyn jinaqtaghan qazaq tilining 15 tomdyq týsindirme sózdigi mәdeny ómirimizding asyl mәiegi ekeni de aiqyn. Biraq ol jaynata jinap qoyyp, tamsana qarap otyratyn «kórseqyzar» dýnie emes. Ol - iyisi alashqa ata-babanyng qasiyetti amanaty. Ol sonday-aq úly dalanyng úrpaqtan úrpaqqa auysar asyl múrasy jәne ózderin osynau dosqa - darhan, jaugha - jansaugha elding perzentimiz dep biletinderding - memlekettik tili. Alayda Ana tilimiz sahnada ajarlanyp, tom-tom kitap bolyp tolysyp, tehnikagha «bas bildirgenimen», amal qaysy, qazaq qazaqpen qazaqsha sóilesuge asygha qoyar emes.
«MEN» degen eljandy erlerdi memleket­tik tilding «momyn minezinin» ereuildetui de sodan. Egemendigimizge jiyrma jyl tolghanda arnayy baghdarlama dayyndalyp, aldaghy on jyldyng mindetterining naqtylanuy asa qajetti shara, biraq janashyr qauymdy onyng qajytatyny da shyndyq. Múnyng sonymen qatar qazaqtyng óz basyndaghy olqylyghynyng ornyn toltyru maqsatynan tughany da anyq. Áriyne, memlekettik qazaq tili turaly jeke zang da qabyldanar, biraq halyqtyng ózi qareketke kóshpese, onyng da qaghazda qaluy mýmkin. Qazaqpyz desek, tughan tilimizdi erekshe qaster tútyp qana qoymay, onyng aibyndana týsui aqyn-jazushy Múhtarlar men ministr Múhtardyng ortaq armany. Sonday-aq barshamyzdyng perzenttik paryzymyz.
ALASh ARMANY

«MEN» degen Alash arystary eldi azamat soghysynyng oty sharpyghan alasapyran shaqta uaqyttyng qolgha tiygen mýmkindigin paydalanyp qalugha tyrysty. Tipti egemen el bolugha qay ýkimet beyil tanytsa, sony qoldady. Jarymjan qoghamnyng tónkeristerden kóz ashpaytyny belgili. Onyng týbine jetetin de osy tónkerister. Damudyng tabighy ýrdisinen janylyp, «dauylpaz» dimkәsine shaldyqqandardyng mandayynyng sory - búl.
«MEN» deytin erleri joq elding bolashaghy búldyr. Eldi algha tartatyn da sol birtuar arystar. 1917-ning aqpan tónkerisining monar­hiyalyq patsha ýkimetin qúlatyp, qoghamdy reformalar arqyly evolusiyalyq jolmen ózgertudi kózdegeni belgili. Biraq Reseydi túralatqan әleumettik-ekonomikalyq ahual әbden ushyghyp, biylik demigip qalghan edi. Mendegen dertke shipa tabylmady. Birinshi jahandyq soghystyng apaty aurudy odan beter asqyntyp jiberdi. Bolishevikter «kisennen» basqa qimaytyn eshtenesi joq, jalanayaq proletariatty kóshege arandatty.
MENmensip, «dauyl izdegen» dýley kýsh sol jylghy kýzde taghy da tónkeris jasady. Búl - otarlyq ezgidegi alash júrtyna da zor qasiret әkeldi. «MEN» degen qaysar halyqtyng beti qaghyldy. Osy orayda jazyqsyz jazalanghandar «birin-biri ústap beripti, satypty» degen sóz úshqary aitylghan, jalghan qaueset. Ýkimetting qyryna ilikkenderding óz qoldarymen jazyp qaldyrghan týsiniktemelerine zer salsaq (mәselen, D.Amanjolovanyng «Na izlome» zertteui, 2009 j.), Alash «MEN» degen arystarynyng ózderine tanylghan aiypqa mýlde sengileri kelmegenin kóremiz. Olar jazyqsyz jalagha ýzildi-kesildi qarsy shyqty, kinәsiz kýimeytinderine ýmitterin ýzbedi. Al aqtalu kezinde azamattardyng óz taghdyrlaryna qatysy bar tanystaryn aitpay túra almaytyny belgili jәne auyzdarynan shyqqannyng bәri «qaralaugha» ainalatyny qaperlerine kirmedi.
«Men» degen ziyaly qauym Alashorda men Týrkistan avtonomiyalaryn qúru jolynda erekshe qajyr-qayrat tanytty. Olar til mәselesinde de óz sayasattaryn batyl jýrgizdi. Kenes qúrylysy jónindegi 1925-shi jylghy Býkilqazaqtyq mәslihattyng materialdary múny taghy da dittey týsedi. Elimizding avtonomiyaly oblystan avtonomiyaly respublikagha ainalyp, ózining tarihy atauyn iyemdenui tap sol jyldyng enshisine tiyedi. Aumaly-tókpeli zamannyng ózinde-aq, tughan tilimiz memlekettik mәrtebe alyp, memlekettik mekemelerding apparattaryn qazaqylandyru mәselesining kóterilui «MEN» degen agha buynnyng ruhyna әli san mәrte bas iygizedi. Olardyng bar oi-niyeti men armany últtyq memleket qúru boldy. Sol janpida әreketteri arqyly óz bastaryn qalay oqqa baylaghandaryn da bilmey qaldy. Býgingi Qazaqstan - sol jazyqsyz japa shekken eljandy arystardyng oryndalghan armany.
MENning biri - Shahanov halyqtyng só­zin aita­dy, arzan abyroy jinau ýshin aitpaydy. Ol - ordany otyzynda-aq búzyp, qyryq jasyna jetpey-aq qamal alghan qaharman. Múhanday túlparmen jabylar ghana jaghalasuy mýmkin. Biraq biz biletin Múhan, sonau Jeltoqsanda nayzaghay bop jarqyldaghan, keyin Aral bolyp aqtarylghan aqyn agha bireulerge únau ýshin kýresip jýrgen joq. Alla taghalanyng ózine jazghan talanty men tegeuirinin tughan halqyna arnaudan jazbaydy.
«MENimen» sol bir kerjaq zamanda-aq qazaghyn asqaqtatqan Oljas ta, eki Múhtar, Asanәli men Aqseleu de sonday eldi eren darynymen algha tartqan, halqyn jat júrtqa tanytqan qaharmandar ekenine sóz bar ma?! Shahanov aitpaqshy, keybireu tilding adammen birge jaralatyn egiz qúbylys ekenin bilmeydi. «Shetelding bir perzenthanasynda ýsh týrli últtyng dýniyege jana kelgen sәbiylerin bir palatagha jinap arnayy synaq jasapty, - deydi Múhan. - Sonda olar óz ana tilindegi «aynalayyngha» ghana uildep, ýndestik tanytqan kórinedi». Demek, ana tilinen aiyrylu tughan últynnan, atateginnen kóz jazyp qalu degen sóz.
MENning qazir kýni tudy. «Qazaqstan Res­publikasy qazaq halqynyng san ghasyrlyq memlekettiligining qúqyqtyq, tarihy jalghyz dara múrageri jәne onyng sayasi, memlekettik qúrylymynyng tabighy jalghasy», memlekettik tildi mengeru «...әrkimning paryzy men mindeti» - dep, «Últ birligi» doktrinasynda taygha tanba basqanday etip, jazylyp qoyylghan. Endigi mindet - osy qaghidany qazaqstandyqtardyng býgingi ghana emes, keleshek úrpaghynyng da sanasyna myqtap siniru bolyp tabylady. Memleketimizding barsha azamaty kóptegen qayghyly oqighalardy bastan keship, asa auyr synaqtardan aman óte otyryp tól memleketin qúrghan qazaq halqynyng tarihy missiyasyn sózsiz qabyldauy jәne onyng tóniregine toptasuy paryz.
MEN qay zamanda da jauapkershilikti ózine ala bildi jәne ózin-ózi syngha qayrap saldy. Jahandanu zamany elder men últtargha asa qatal talap qoyyp otyr. Osy tústa óz qúndylyqtaryn, tughan tilin joghaltpaytyn, bәsekege dayyn últ qana ózin-ózi últ retinde saqtap qala alady. Ghalymdardyng pikirine qaraghanda, qazir dýniyejýzindegi tilderding 40 payyzy qúryp ketuding aldynda túrsa, әrbir eki apta sayyn sonyng bireui joghalady eken. Sondyqtan Elbasy aitqanday, eng aldymen qazaqtardyng ózderi bir-birimen qazaqsha sóilesui qajet. Sebebi endi on jylda qazaq tilimen onsyzda bәsekeles orysshagha aghylshyn tili aghayyndaspaq bolyp otyr. Asa qiyn da jauapty mindet: qazaghymyzdyng sarytap shydamyn sarqyp almay, ýmiti aqtaluy tiyis.
MEN... elining «men» degen egiz Múhtary­nyng arman-maqsaty da osy, qazaghynyng baqyty! MEN sonymen adamdyq mәni, el tiregi, tirlik sharty, Alash arystarynyng armany. Jaryq dýniyege adam bop kelgen son, óz MENindi tapqannan asqan baqyt joq. Biraq EGEndi (ózine-ózinning iyeligindi), yaky EGE...MENindi saqtap qalu qiyn-aq. Sondyqtan MENning tamyr jayyp, óris ashuyna qogham qamqor boluy tiyis. Sebebi qoghamnyng damuynda, elding órkeniyetten layyqty oryn aluynda MENning atqarar missiyasy erekshe. Biraq onyn, taghy da qaytalap aitamyz, erekshe túlgha boluy - shart emes, ol - tәuelsiz, parasatty, isker azamat. Elding tiregi de, sýienishi de, keleshegi de osynday qarapayym, biraq eshkimge bas iymeytin, qúldyq qamytyn kiymegen azamattar.
MEN bala jastan qalyptasady. Áytpese, keshtik etedi. Alayda MENning qalyptasuyna qay-qaysymyz-aq әbden atsalysa alar edik. Aytalyq, bir ghana nashar әdetten arylugha, múny úrpaqtyng sanasyna erte bastan siniruge bolady. Qoghamdy jaylap, pendelerdi erttep minip alghan dert az ba? Dýniyeqonyzdyq, jaghympazdyq, maskýnemdik... Sonyng bireuinen ghana bas tartu arqyly úrpaqqa tym qúrysa, bir ónegeni amanat etsek, qanday!
MEN elding ósip, órkendeui men gýldenui­ning kepili, Alash arystarynyng armany, demek...
Adamdyq mәni - MEN.

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