Men jazbasam bolmaytyn boldy

Arshyn Núrbaqyt

Qaytu

Qarly tau arasyndaghy kóshten,

Adasyp qalghan tóbet-

Ózining anghaldyghyna nalyp,

úlydy kenet.

Aynala ymyrt ýiirilip,

Úitqyidy aqtýtek boran.

Jeke bir ýishiging bolmasa da,

Qayda әlgi jyp-jyly qoran.

Qontorghaylau iyesi múny,

Qayyrylyp izdegen de shyghar.

Álde basqa it tauyp aldy ma?

Qasqyr kelgende synar.

Bay auylynyng tazylaryna

ilesip neng bar edi.

Seni joldan qaldyrghan -

Mayly jilikting әlegi.

Aldyng túman, artyng múz,

Al, endi sen netpeksin?

Qay iyendi panalap,

Qayda sapar shekpeksin?!

...Eski júrtqa tartarsyn,

Nar tәuekel bekinip.

Basqa qylar qayran joq.

Úlyghanmen ókinip.

Kóshten adasyp ketkening de

Negizi - dúrys boldy.

Tauyp aldyng mine -

Tughan jerge aparatyn joldy.

Áytse de, iyesiz qalghan júrttaghy,

Qorqaular sighyzar ma?

"Bopty. Jolay ózim syndy

adasqandardy jiyp,

tartayyn sol bar taugha!"

Tәuelsizdik

Shynyrauda qalghan songhy tamshyday baghaly,

Jarlynyng alghash tonynday kiygen jaghaly.

Myng jyldyq shólge nóser bop qúighan telegey,

Aralda qalghan jalghyzgha jaqyndaghan kemedey.

Kýrkirep kóshkin qughanda dalda bop qalghan tóbedey,

anam bir jayghan óredey.

Qymbatsyng ghoy sen maghan!

Terezeni tyrmalap anasyn kýtken sәbiydey,

Tatar dәmi bitkende kózdi arbaghan pәniydey.

Mahabbatqa mәjnýn bop jan bauraghan syiqyrly,

Shymyr-shymyr jayylyp buyndy alghan kýy syndy.

Men bóltirik, sen ene jelden aulap iysindi -

Úmtyldym ghoy men saghan!

Ayalaghan jetimdi alaqannyng tabynday,

Ýzilgende tirsegim ústap túrghan tamyrday.

Qúiryghymmen úshqanda, qanat bolghan taldyrmay,

Kóktemdi ansap kelgende, shalqyp jatqan aidynday.

Ghasyrlyq tas týnekti jaryp ótken jasynday,

Keshegi ótken qablan er Kenening ghaziz basynday! -

Qasterlising sen maghan!

Tamyrym qansyp qalghanda, qanyp ishken shәrbәttay,

Tamúqta kýiip jatqanda, jarq ete qalghan jәnnәttay.

Sham týbinde jymyndap oramal tikken súluday,

Taudyng iyisi anqyghan әkemnen qalghan jyluday.

Qyzyr jaylap jatatyn atamnyng qútty tórindey,

Kýnning iyisi anqyghan әjemnen qalghan meyirdey,-

Ystyqsyng ghoy sen maghan!

Oyau kórgen týsimdey - jalghandaghy shyndyghym!

Ar men ruhty әlemge taratatyn kindigim.

Aqiqaty allanyn, kózimning aq pe qarasy -

Mine búl qazaq dalasy!

Anyng ýrikpesinshi - tomaryng bop jatayyn.

Qúsyng ýrikpesinshi - su týbine batayyn.

Jasa tәuelsizdigim!- tarqamaytyn saghynysh!

Qazaghyndy mәngilik saparlargha alyp úsh!

Átir

Jaynaghan jasyl baqqa synghyr qaghyp,

Júpar shashyp boyjetken kirdi úrlanyp.

Bir bozbala «chanel» men qarsy aldy ony...

Qauyzyna qondy ara gýlding baryp.

Ghashyqtargha baqyttyng bәrin ýishi,

Ómirding sony kýishi, basy biyshi.

Týn aua shyqty ekeui qoltyqtasyp,

Búrqyrap baqqa sindi әtir iyisi.

Degendey úzaq qylsyn qyzyghyndy,

Tóbeden ay kýlimdep jýzi núrly.

Biraq ta sinip qalghan әtir iyisinen

Qústar men gýl-bәisheshek tyjyryndy.

...kýz de jetti, qús ta joq, gýlder ghayyp,

Ómir solay ol ýshin búldanbayyq.

jalghyz kepti boyjetken әtirlenbey...

Bilmedim, ne bolghanyn kimder de aiyp?!

Ana

Alataudyng qabaghy qúrsanypty –

Anamnyng omyrtqasy qisayypty.

Aydyn kólding ajaryn múng shalypty –

Anamnyng omyrtqasy qisayypty.

Boztorghayday shyryldap ala tanda,

Balapanday ósirding alaqanda.

Jaryng ketip otyzdan asa bere,

Aydyn kól de, sen boldyng alatau da!

Kóz úshynda búldyrap qalghan dәuren,

Taghdyrdyng tas qamalyn talqandaumen.

Enbektep kóterding ghoy - belinde agham,

Qaryndasym jelkende, arqanda men.

Biz ýshin ózing boldyng myng tolaghay,

Jylytty qabaghynnan týsken aray.

Ósirem dep jýrgende úl-qyzyndy,

Shemirsheging de ósipti ishke qaray

Arqana salmaq salyp tabyt – ghalam,

Qu jalghan yrjyn-yrjyng shalyqtaghan.

Sonda da rizamyn taghdyryma,

Omyrtqang opyrylmay qalypty aman.

...Tәnirim synamaq pa taghy qúlyn,

Tar jerde tútqa boldy taghylymyn,

Men kaghbany izdeptim pәruana bop...

Jәinamazym eken ghoy jauyrynyn.

Shataghym joq, dyr-duman - alqasynda,

Minәjәt qyp jatayyn qalqasynda,

Jerding shary shayqalmay aman túrsa,

Bәri, bәri ananyng arqasynda,

...Tiylayyn mende endi «kóp úrttaudan»,

Endi berer qútyndy kemitpe allam.

Anajan jatynyzshy, demalynyz.

Tizerlep sýieyinshi omyrtqannan!

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