Men Qantar tragediyasy turaly kitap jazar bolsam (әriyne, әdeby kitap, roman), taqqa talas, baqqa talas nәn adamdar, qashqan-pysqan sheneunik, altyn artqan úshaq, sasqan oligarhtar turaly emes, keyipkerlerim kishkentay adamdar bolar edi. Olar - otyz jyl boyy qaqysy ketken, iyini jaryp kiyim kiymey, qarny toyyp tamaq ishpese de "bir kýni ózgeris bolar" degen ýmitpen ómir sýrgender bolar edi. Bir kýni rasymen de sol kýtken ózgeristing sheti kórinedi, ýlken sheru bastalady.

Almaty Arenadan, Respublika Alanyna tartqan qalyng nópir, qaharly sheru. "Osy kýndi qansha kýttik?" dep bir-birin jaqyn tartqan tileuqor júrt, tilekshil aghayyn. Sonsha úzaq joldy jayau basyp, qara sany ýzilip, qany keuip, qatalasa da qolyndaghy kishkentay qútydaghy suyn jol ýstine qoyyp, artta kele jatqannyng qamyn oilaghan qalyng qarasha. Kózinde ot, kókireginde senim. Ýmit, arman...

Alan. Jarylghan granatanyng qolqany qapqan ashy týtini, qúlaqty bitegen shuyly. IYesiz, әri-beri tolqyghan nópir... Atylghan oq, antalaghan ajal...

Ýzilgen ýmit, kýiregen senim. Abaqtydaghy azap, tas qabyrghadan talyqsyp jetken dauys. Azaly otbasy, ajal qúshqan ayauly azamat. Qansha qan tógilse de sol bayaghy mәni ózgermegen avtoritarlyq rejiym...

Osylay bolar edi.

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