Teledidar qaray qoyayyn dep ashsam, bir arna toqal mәselesin kóterip jatyr, bir arnadan otbasylyq ómir turaly uaghyz aitylyp jatyr, fb-gha kirsem bireuding kýieuine, bireuding әieline "ghashyq" bolghan jandar. Bir bedeldi, baquatty agham "Birinshi jarym auyryp, tósek tartyp jatyp qalghanda qayta túrmaydy dedi me, basymdy sýieuge jaramady, jazylyp, etek - jenimdi jiyp, biznesimdi bastap, el qataryna qosyldym, qalghan kónil ornyna kelmey ajyrastyq, sosyn ekinshi ret ýilendim, ortaq balamyz bolmady, sonyng balalaryn baghyp, jetkizdim, shetelde oqyttym, tughan-tuysynan da týgimdi ayamadym, mening aqsham ghana kerek ekenine kózim jetip, odan da ajyrastym, qazir jas qyzgha ýilendim, syilar, týsiner, endi nede bolsa osymen túramyn. Ghaziza, eki jaqsy qúday qalghyghanda ghana qosylady" dep әngimesin ayaqtady. Baqytynyng bayandy boluyn tiledim. "Biz bayaghyda renjiskende tórkinge ketpey, әkenning tuysynyng ýiine baryp, ashu tarqaghasyn týk bolmaghanday qaytyp keletinbiz." deydi anam. Bir kýieubalam "birnәrse bolsa enem dalada jatqan qyzym joq" dep shyghady dep renjip otyr. Negizi bir alaqannan shapalaq shyqpaydy. Eki jaqtan da bar. Áyeldi syilaudyng jóni osy eken dep tóbelerine shygharyp, tipti tughan sheshesin de syilata almay, aghayynnan syrt etken erkekterdi de kórip jýrmiz. Áyeldi syilau men onyng saghan óktemdik jýrgizgenin shatastyryp alyp jatamyz. Biraz uaqyt búryn túrmysqa shyqqan bir sinilim keldi, ayaghy auyr, "qatelesippin, onbaghan eken, qyzghanshaq, anasy tipti jaman" dep, mening janym ashyp, әlgilerdi túqymdarymen jek kórip, mennen keyingi sinlim "seni baylap qosqan eshkim joq, anasymen túrmaysyng onyn, kinә sennen de bar shyghar" dep ish jylyta qoymady. Súraghan aqshasynda bermedi. Sodan qaytyp etti. Qazir eki balasy bar, tatu - tәtti ómir sýrip jatyr. Tәubә. "Erkindikke ýirenip qalghan basym, otbasylyq ómirge birden kóndige almaghan men de kinәli ekenmin" deydi keyin. Bir jas kelinshek: "kýieuim kózime shóp salghanyn bilsem, ólemin" deydi. Jyndysyn, onda, ana eki balang kimge qalady dedim. Ayta berseng otbasylyq ómirding jyry tausylmaydy.
"Tabighat әielge bylay deydi: qolynnan kelse súlu bol, qalasang dana bol, al, sanaly, aqyldy bolugha mindettisin" dep jazypty Bomarshe. Sabyrly bolugha da mindetti der edim. Syilastyq pen senim ghoy bastysy. Qúday qosqan qosaqtarynyzdan ajyraspay, baqyttarynyz bayandy bolsyn.
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