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Jýie men qogham arasyndaghy "senim" qaqyrap ketti

Birde әkesi balasyn úzaq sapargha attandyryp túryp: "Pәlenbay deytin jerde mynau sheksiz ghalamnyng syryn biletin danyshpan qariya túrady. Sol danyshpannan baqyttyng qúpiyasyn bilip kel",- deydi. Qyryq kýn jýrip әlgi jigit taudyng qiyr shynynda ornalasqan ghalamat zәulim saraygha keledi. Onyng iyesi әkesi aitqan dana qariya bolyp shyghady. Ákesining amanatyn oryndau ýshin jigit danagóiding aldyna baryp: «baqyttyng kilti qayda?» degen saualyn qoyady. Qariya bolsa jigitting qolyna eki shay qasyqqa may tamshylatyp berip: "sen aldymen myna zәulim saraydy tamashalap kel, tek qolyndaghy eki qasyq maydy tógip alma" deydi. Eki saghattan song әlgi jigit qariyanyng aldyna keledi. "Ne kórdin?" deydi qariya. "Barlyq zeyinim qolymdaghy eki qasyqta boldy, eshtene kóre almadym, ata" deydi. "Onda qayta aralap shyq, múnda qyzyq kóp" dep qayta jiberedi. Jigit saraydyng tanghajayyp kórinisin әbden qyzyqtap danyshpannyng aldyna oralyp, kórgen tanghajayyptaryn auzynan suy qúryp bayandap beredi. "Qolyndaghy eki tamshy mayyng qayda?" deydi qariya jigitti múqiyat tyndap bolyp. Jigit qasyghynyng bos ekenin endi bayqap, basyn qasyp qalady. Sonda danyshpan:" Búl ómirdi shalqyp qyzyqta, bil, qalauynsha ómir sýr, tek qolyndaghy eki tamshynyng tógilip qalmauyn qadaghala. Baqyttyng bar syry osy" degen eken. Ol ne tamshy? Paulo Koelio onyng jauabyn kórermenning ózine qaldyrypty.

Meninshe, qos tamshy - nәpsi men ar. Nәpsindi tiyp, arly bolsan, imanyng tasyp, baqytyng bayandy bolmaq. Býgingi jýie sol danyshpan aitqan eki ayauly tamshysyn tógip aldy. Nәpsisin tyimay baylyq jidy, әdildik qúrmay, ardan bezdi. Jýie men qogham arasyndaghy "senim" atty alyp qamaldyng qabyrghasy qaqyrap ketkeni de sol. Qaqyrap ketken qamaldy qayta túrghyzbaqqa Últtyq senim kenesin qúrdy. Ol keneske biylikting astyrtyn qolshoqparlary men qoghamnyng seniminen ada key "túlghalar" jýr eken... Olar qaytyp setinep ketken senimdi jalghaydy?

Paradoks. Jasaral, Dosym, Janbolat, Tolghanay, Ermúrattar qayda? Ermúrat demekshi, ol kisini "Aqiqattan" alastatyp ýlgiripti.. Parlamenttik saylau qoyylymyna dayyndyq bastalyp ketken eken ghoy...

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