Shalghaydaghy auylda bir jýkti әiel jesir qalypty. Ólgenning artynan ólmek joq, kýn kóru kerek. Taudan otyn jaryp, malyna shóp tasyp, tamaghyn tauyp jýredi. Bir kýni әdettegidey qyrgha shyghady, sonda jaraly aq kýzenge kezigedi. (Kýzen – tyshqannyng túqymdasy.) Ony emdep, ózine serik etip asyrap alady.

Aq kýzen jarasyn jazghan iyesine barynsha adal bolypty. Bauyrmaldyghy sol, jýkti әielding janynan bir eli ajyramapty. Ýy january emes, aidaladan kelgen dala hayuany bolsa da, adamnyng tilin aitqyzbay týsinetin tilalghysh-tyn. Ayy-kýni jetip, әiel bosanady. Tireui joq jesirding uayymy da, tirligi de, enbegi de eki eselenedi. Balasyn jalghyz asyrap-baghugha tura keledi. Nәpaqasyn tabugha tysqa shyqqanda nәresteni aq kýzenmen birge qaldyryp ketetin bolady. Kýnderding kýninde әdepki әreketimen taugha tartady. Jighan-tergenin qoltyqtap qaytady. Ýy manyna jaqynday bere aq terisi qyzarandaghan kýzendi kózi shalady. Iyghyndaghyn tastay sala aq kýzenge taqaydy. Auzy-basy qyzyl qangha boyalghan aq kýzendi kórgende jýregi tas tóbesine shyghyp, ah úryp, oghan bas salady. Aqyry óltirip tynady. Sol sәtte ýy ishinen sharana shyr etedi. Aptyghyp kirip barghanda besikting janyna jeter jerde parshalanyp jatqan jylandy kóredi...

Osy oqigha tura bizding qazaq qoghamynyng kýii sekildi. Bir-birining alqymynan alyp jatqan bireu. Sottaymyz, qamaymyz, úramyz, jyghamyz, shalamyz. Joq qyp jiberuge janymyzdy salamyz. Onyng osy uaqytqa deyingi adaldyghyna boylap bolmayyz, isi men say kelgen sózin saraptamaymyz. «Býlindi» deymiz, «Nege býlindi?» demeymiz. Eng ókinishtisi, qay zamanda da sonyng bәrin syrttan syghalaghan bireu istemedi, ózimiz.

Darhan daladan kelip, talaby tauday tirshilikke kóndigip, kópke qyzmet qylyp, qym-quytta qazaqty qorghaymyn dep qolyn malyp ap iyesine bylghanyshty bop qalghan aq kýzenderim-ay!

Abaydy sabap, Birjandy arqanmen qazyqqa qarmap, irilerin Sibirge aidap, kilkigen qaymaghyn otyz jetide qyryp, jeltoqsanda jer jastandyryp, jardan jyghudy Sary Almasqa, Zamanbekke, Altynbekke, S. Ybyraygha jalghaghan qoghamgha S. Ahmetov, Talghat pen Ayan, T. Jamanqúlov, J. Mamay bop jetip, qyzyl-qara qangha boyalghan aq kýzenderim-ay!

Solardyng әupirimdep boygha bitip, aiday tolyp, kýnde tuyp, buyny bekip kele jatqan sharana-ruhty oghan qas qylghan ajdahalardan qorghaghanyn bile me, so júrt? Aqiqatyn andaghanda tym kesh bolghanyn, bolatynyn seze me so kóp?...

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Myna jerde aty atalghandardyn, qalys qalghandardyng fotolary tizilip túr dep sanay salynyzdar. Telearnada rejisserdin, jurnalda dizaynerdin, gazette fototilshining qyzmetin paydalanu miyna sinip qalghan adamgha qiyn eken ghoy.

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